I Want To Know How To Feel

Every grain of sand lost is slowly costing me my sanity. I’m so defensive and paranoid. I’ve been a protecter my whole life defending my family and my respect. Just listen to me and let me speak! All I know is pain. All I know is violence. All I know is being poe. I All I know is vices. All I know is war. All I know is flash backs on visions of murder. All I know is drugs and savage living. All I know is short but long prison sentences. All I know is how to fight. All I know is cash on sight. All I know is gangsta shit. All I know is gold digging scandalous women. So tell me where love fits in these sentences.

You’re Far Away Yet Close Enough

Feelings abroad…

Feelings warm like thick blankets over my feet…

Feelings of pure caramel covered happiness…

Feeling of a new romance that could go deep like the hands that planted the seeds.

A foreign affair worth it…

So far away but I can feel your every touch everyday…

I want for this to last so bad but I know I’ll probably never get the chance…

Your words flow like almond milk in a ┬áChampagne glass…

You’re so different and that’s what I love the most…

So far away you are…

The only thing separating us is the Atlantic’s giant pool…

I know my feelings for you will grow and age like the price of a fine wine collection…

I promise I’ll see you soon if you ever give me the chance…

At night I dream of us together like conjoined twins. Your finger tips running up and down my chest while I palm the back of your neck softly yet firm taking turns kissing every naked part of you slowly. Cracking the code to the safe that holds our destiny in it. Your long hair I’ll stroke with care. Worshiping your love like I’m in your mosque of life barring pleasures. I’ll please all of your boarders and boundaries in make you moan my name in a unfamiliar stimulating language. Let all of your emotions and your sweet ocean spray out of you as I’ll hold on to you like a new born and softly put you to sleep. Life for me would be so sweet if I could have my foreign crush next to me.

In Holy Matrimony

If I had you… I would cradle your loneliness…

Beat your stress up in to submission making it mine…

I’d use your depression for target practice…

wrestle with your anxiety pinning it down for good…

Run warm water in the bath tub and drown your insecurities…

I’d hop in my truck and run over all of your fears…

My number one lady… My number one baby… You don’t have to act so tough and put up road blocks and check points. You don’t have to build the great wall of China between us. Let your guard down for me and I promise you’ll see that I’m not a fake clone and I can never be copyed. I am nothing like your last mate or nothing like you had in the past. Come to me and let me hold you tight like jelly jar lids. You can use my chest as a pillow. I’ll never dishonor my Queen. I’ll turn your dark roads into streams and kaknew my way through your dreams. I would love to see your morning face everyday and steal some Eskimo kisses.

I got you…

No seriously I got you…

We are a team…

What’s mine is ours…

Let’s create an epiphany…

It’ll have your smarts and my strong will and fearless actions…

I got you…

Nah…

Listen to me…

I got your back like a chiropractor…

Together you and I are compatible…

I will appreciate your every breath and every word that left…

All I need is You and me…

A Plea For My Freedom

I slowly carved my initials into the flesh of a monster. The bigger they are the harder they fall.

Respect was taken and I climbed to the top of the food chain.

I can still hear those alarms going off in my head. Guards stampeding in, loud boots and walkie talkie and riot gear telling us screeming get the fuck on the ground now.

I never back down from no one or anything and that’s my weakness. I always sat down quick from case after case.

I was facing 40years at 21years old. True story… A new trial was set. I made a bet with the almighty to cut me some slack and I’ll never go back to the box. Two hours later the case was dismissed on a technicality. Lack of evidence… Time surved 38 years suspended and apon realese I was to do 1 year of porole.

At that very moment I became a strong believer and I still am to this day…

Thank you and all praises go to you!