Titles…..

Insecurities….

I have no fear so I drowned my insecurities…

“Please!”

“Don’t kill me!”

“I’m sorry!”

You shouldn’t talk with your mouth full…

Then the trigger was pulled on my insecurities…

Insecurities…

How can I be insecure if I let ever women I loved walk all over me…

I made doormats jealous…

Jellyfish sting leaving a burning sensation…

So does fucking with my patients…

Insecuritie…

Hello!

Hi!

How are you?!

If I talked to someone about my lifes pains…

I’ll be in prison that same day…

Don’t mistake my knowledge for insecuritie…

Mistaken me for being weak or weak minded…

Will leave you with no tonsils…

I’m sure of it!

Insecuritie…

I must tell you…

The level of tension I’ve experienced…

You already no though.

You are my insecurities…

I lay low in garbage or under your truck…

It could be days or weeks..

Then as soon as I see these insecurities…

I’m going to pop out!

Pop out them full Metal jackets…

Aka Kop killers…

These insecurities never showed up…

It was just me…

Comming out of the house…

Ready to put in work for my faction…

With out drugs or conchence…

Im insecure about which gun will match with my clothing…

I’m insecure with which person I’ll put a hole in…

I’m insecure about 380.s…

I like 40.s…

I don’t give a flying pigs shit about some strange word I never herd of….

like insecurities…..

 

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I WAS ONLY YOUR DISASTER 

(A old ass one right here)

 

 

The life you live is ethereal to me…

I will never understand it…

My life to you is the same but deeper…

See I can’t be with you…

I don’t want you to suffer…

You know me…

You no that my life is like no other…

You were just going to college…

At the same time…

I was going to jail…

You didn’t understand it…

Yet You accepted it…

You really loved me…

I was a G…

A born gangster in the eyes of the black robes that sentenced me…

For something I didn’t even do…

We where from two different worlds…

The point is…

You were to good for me…

I didn’t want to ruin your life…

My biggest way of showing you I love you was…

To let you go…

So fly away…

Become something that Ill never be…

I want you to love someone that deserves you…

More than I do…

Born in a haphazard life…

I was…

You however…

Where bought up in a beautiful Koi pond life style…

Everything just perfect.

You deserved better…

No Fu Fu

Destruction!

Diversions!

Incursions!

Abstract!

 

 

Other side of the street…

Left your body out your shoes…

Abstract!

 

 

Lazy baby!

Staining!

Armed robbery!

Home invasions for golden weapons!

Abstract!

 

 

Police!

Pigs!

One time!

Five O!

Time out!

The boys!

Fuck a rookie!

We’ll show em!

Abstract!

 

 

Cavities pulled with caps put on them…

Caucasians hate us…

Don’t even no us…

Abstract!

 

 

Speaking in Swahili in prison…

Keeping all eye seeing minds scrambled…

Abstract!

 

 

A smart man playing dumb dumb…

Ice pick entering lungs…

The feeling is very tough…

1999 crimes…

Abstract!

 

 

Abstract!

Times eyes…

Abstract!

They will get nothing I speak…

Abstract!

 

 

A distraction! Distraction! DISTRACTION!

 

 

It’s the lingo of the intelligent. Stacking cabbage on hot blocks. Off hot blocks being broken down.

Halfs…

Quarters…

Eighths…

Sixteenths…

Fiftys…

Twentys…

Dimes and nicks…

Abstract money making!

If broke…

Money taken…

Half a million chicken eggs stashed in the ex lovers grandmothers basement!

Abstract!

Body blows intimidating the witness. Description is the language of abstractish……….

 

 

 

 

Limbo

(My verry first post)

 

Times are hard…

The only thing that keeps me going is warm blood and cold steel.

My life is complicated!

My days are darker than a solar eclipse slowly covering the moon of my life.

Until darkness…

I drink to get sleep!

I drink to forget!

Drugs now just ware off quick!

Time is suspended…

Lord forgive me for I have sinned to survive!

I will never have any regrets!

Slow me down with physical pain.

My tears will stain the concrete like blood in a dim lit hallways…

Blood stain on the sofa cushions!

Blood stains almost everywhere that there was a short story!

A battle!

I will never forget those days of war for peace.

To only loose peace of mind through my eyes!

Violence soaked in gasoline…

I find the defendant guilty of being misguided, savage and blind…

I received the chair!

Love me or kill me!

I have wounds that will never heal…

The world to me is one giant grave yard!

Me six feet deep…

Day by day…

SAVE ME!

I’m only what America made me…

I still live by faith holding my crucifix tightly in my hand…

With a stone grip!

Money still grows from hell’s tree leaves.

Hands that have roads on palms…

Hard like prison doors.

Autographed by powder burns from last night…

Sincerely time will tell!

This city is soulless undergone reruns that won’t end!

The days are interminable…

I watch a show of purgatory up to its highest volume!

Kill or be killed!

Another black male enslaved by his own funeral service…

People acting like they care with there crocodile tears…

falling to the grass…

Ashes to ashes…

Dust to dust…

How many of us will go next?

Forget justice!

Justice is just us…

Genocide from people in blue uniforms!

Am I dying or am I dead?

I can’t tell anymore…

I can’t dwell anymore…

My pain and suffering…

Just kill me already!

She loves me…

She loves me not…

She loves me…

She loves me not…

Then she pulled the trigger…

Aiming at my own heart!

Shooting me down!

Fuck it all!

Laugh out loud!

In their eyes…

we are a joke to them…

Examples will be made in this soulless parade…

SPEECHLESS!!!

LETS FUSE TOGETHER 

(Old One)

 

I’m so in love with you…

I’m so…

In love with you…

Love is my special place for you…

I love you so much…

Even though I know you will never love me as much…

Dangerously…

I am in to you…

I want you by my side like my solid pride…

You’re my future…

Love me…

Like I love you…

Love me like your first…

Love me like cold water quenching your thirst…

Love me like short sleeves in a summer breeze…

Love me like snow flakes on Christmas day…

I shall  love you the same…

I want you to be with me forever…

I want to make a tribe with you…

I want to take off your socks…

After a long day to rub your feet…

I want to smell your vanilla scent…

As I kiss on your soft cheek…

I want to hold you tight…

Enough that you can breath…

I want to be your breath…

You exhale so you can inhale me…

I love you so much…

I love you so…

It kills me…

When we die…

I want to be buried in your casket…

So our love will never die alone…

I love you so…

So you love I…

FOREVER!

 

 

(I didn’t really like this one here) (I was going to toss it in the trash) lol! No bullst!

TRUE PAIN

(A old one)

 

 

I’ve seen death up close and personal in the worst ways possible…

Since I was five years old…

Our relationship was a road that never ended like silent hills…

Agony…

Tragedy….

Wild beasts of all kinds…

True story!

This ain’t no confession…

This is just pure raw uncut truth…

My life is like a child coming home…

To a cold vacant apartment…

With no food or heat or running hot water…

At times…

My hopelessness became my true recognition…

No ones perfect…

Not even YOU!

Remember that before you criticize someones life…

How they write…

If you only knew…

The undernourished emotional trauma he’s been through…

This man….

Looney Bin

I’ve been looney!

Bin there…

Done that…

Everywhere I was sapose to be…

I was on time…

Missed my court date…

Violation of probation…

Came home on parole…

Porole…

Broke with pockets out…

We call those the rabbit ears…

It was state issue to get a job…

Waited for a response from certain places…

Then the waiting was to long…

So I violated again…

Lucky me…

Should have had my lucky charms…

The corrections officer got fired…

She said I was very handsome…

The bought me some 160 dollers jeans…

Some sweats to…

It’s sad to say…

Some of my best times where in the caves…

Dreaming about lobsters,  steake and turkey bacon on my plate…

All of us could only dream…

In the feed up line waiting for cold whatever that is and mystery meet…

Teaching the young ones how to conduct there selves if it’s there first time in…

75 percent of everywhere I went…

I was already known from the street…

Or I would meet some of my acual family members…

” A Yoooo!”

” Famlaayyy!”

I would hear from a top teir…

In away that was more like home to me…

The whole world’s views on us are in a looney bin…

We are set up to stay trapped in a cycle…

It’s been like this for over 400 years…

To the other sides of the world…

You may never here about this…

Frost Bitten Blue Prints

The board walk leading to my dark delight. Navigation celebration to the places we have met.

I liked flowers… You liked pot… together… Well you get it! Belongs with my ribbons tied around lost in our days…

That’s how I feel…  Peaces of me… Peace of you! Stuck inside a ballot box.. Picked out by the hands that feed us spiritual agreements…

Northern winds of iceland. With you I still get lost on the way to work. Detours I take back to the house…

I forgot your kiss…

Never again…

Will I ever again…

WORDS HURT AND BULLETS DON’T, I’M ON A MENTAL ABUSE STRIKE

(A Oldiiiieee)

 

I just came to believe that words can kill. Negative criticism sucks!

I try to act like what people say doesn’t bother me. Truthfully it does.

I cant lie in hordes to myself! Hold my head high!

The things people can say can crush you! Before you even know you’ve been tarnished!

Laugh off insults… You know what I mean!

When some one says something mean to you in a joking way. You just sit there and laugh it off.

Knowing it just put a bullet hole in you. The mental scares that words can open.

One that no Band-Aid or gauze can cover up.

Sealing up the wound. I found out that…

Even when people so called joke with you.

It hurts…

Let’s face it!

There is always some truth in a joke. Like a drunk persons quotes.

I just laugh it off though. When really I want to get angry snapping on the inside!

I’m way weaker than I ever thought… I really don’t care what people say about me.

Who am I kidding words hurt!
You don’t understand the damage.

You don’t have to hit me or shoot me to hurt me… You don’t have to talk about my problems out loud like its a big joke…

You don’t have to smile and laugh at my discomfort… Stop and think before you say something to someone!

STOP!

THINK!

BEFORE YOU HURT SOMEONES FEELINGS!

STOP!

THINK!

If I get mad… Then all of the sudden…

I’m the bad guy! You don’t even realize you made me this way!

All because you wanted to so called make jokes. Well Im not joking!

I’m not fucking laughing! So miss me with your weak jokes!

horrible quotes!
Miss me I quote…

Miss..

Me…

The Man

 

 

I think you only see the flaws in me.

I think you forget that I’m a human being.

This little light of mine.

Will never shine.

We will never see eye to eye.

So my flame will slowly die.

I spy with my brown eyes.

Someone in the world that hates me.

That has no faith in me.

Is always mistaking me.

Please!

What more can you take from me?