5 Billion Flukes

Moorsh…

I morn for hisses…

That use to try to snake me…

I’m on to ya…

For my safty…

 

A whole in my chests vortex…

My cerebral cortex is dieing…

 

“For asphyxiation…”

 

I Can’t die

I see…

For torture the almighty won’t let me…

 

As a kid I…

Suffered watching everyone leave me…

 

“Times changed… ”

“I’ve grown…”

 

Dad gone…

Mom gone…

No friends…

If I let you in…

Either your family…

Slash associate…

 

Never have I ever lived legitimately…

Never who I ever knew was…

 

80s baby…

Maybe baby…

I never ever even got to be a son…

 

That’s probably why…

I don’t have one…

I’ve done it all…

 

“Shorrty lo…”

 

I never raped…

No pedophilia…

Or ever lied to people I love…

Never will I…

 

loyalist…

Is my giftedness…

For real…

 

One day if I self distruct…

I can get tranquilized…

Sent to a place for the…

Criminology of my insaine…

Never to be seen…

Again…

Where Its peaceful again…

 

Living out my days of never being…

Nobodys mistreated…

Mechanical engineers…

No matter how much people smile…

Telling you they care…

 

“Narcissism…”

 

Is the blindness…

That  most people think there real…

Loyalty is translation into fake…

 

“These blue days…”

 

Thrown around by words of escape…

Mostly…

By the millennials of today…

Who has never experienced life…

Or love…

For them selves of enyway…

They just observe what the see…

Afraid that it will be them…

 

True or not…

I have to stop…

No more letting in…

For opposits on out…

I told them In 1999….

 

“You can’t handle me now!!”

 

I was the family mistake…

When I started fighting back…

Some how…

 

I’m like a rebound for conversing…

Most people are in a relationship…

They dont even no how…

Most people have or a spouse…

They don’t even no why…

 

I’m not your problem solver…

Just because I listen to there trails…

 

Talk to him/ her…

Your priest or judge…

 

Keep me out your thoughts…

So I can live in mine…

 

With out marathons… Of the same old thing… Old things never broken… Now I will break the cycling… The back peddling…

 

I’m solid with these words…

Tattooed on my spine…

In black widow venom…

Sorry…

Not sorry…

No more will I be this victim…

I’m just truly hurt by never beens…

Who never can………………..

I’m shield myself…

From turning violent…

Long dividing My everything…

What I see as…

Never was…

 

Privicy is platinum…

Mind you business and tend to yours…..

 

 

 

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There’s A Word Called Better… F.O.E.

She seen that side of me…

 

That side that no one fears…

 

She lifted her dress for a test…

 

I declined quietly…

 

Fireworks can be set up…

 

Right…

 

On time ready to live in the sky…

 

Us sitting side by side…

 

This is just the wrong time…

 

I love to be thought of as…

 

Property to be treated neatly…

 

Needing a me…

 

Needing a she…

 

No…

 

Nevermind…

 

I no I’m just…

 

What’s that drink called?

 

That one at that jazzy bar…

 

The one where…

 

“Bobby Blue Bland…”

 

Played my favored song…

 

Oh…

 

Old fashioned…

 

I think I’ve said this before…

 

Listen…

 

You may be mature…

 

I could never be yours…

 

I’ll fuck your life up…

 

Giving you some love…

 

Your soul couldn’t endure…

 

Love that can…

 

Never float away…

 

You will never…

 

Find it washed up…

 

On a shore…

 

You got to…

 

Discover life…

 

Plus what you really want…

 

On your own…

 

“But I  only want you!”

 

She said…

 

I told her it’s dark…

 

I’ll walk you home…

 

Your uncle…

 

Was my right hand…

 

He tought me alot…

 

Things I didn’t no…

 

When he got that life sentences…

 

That morning in court…

 

He walked in shackles with…

 

His head high…

 

He said to me…

 

“Look after my “niece,” and son…”

 

“My baby daughter…”

 

So I took the order…

 

I never broken my promises…

 

I helped you apply for colleges…

 

Your doing good out of state…

 

You even got a apartment looking…

 

Like a small estate…

 

Older…

 

When you get my age…

 

I’ll be old and grey…

 

You cried…

 

I said don’t…

 

I’m always here young one…

 

I just can’t ever be your man…….

 

 

 

Walking In Cracked Palms

Farewell…

The climate changed to alright…

Love the naked trees…

Stripping out of there bright leaves…

Exitic dancing…

Waves of  wind chanting…

Ancient hymnals…

On the backs of golded wind chimes…

 

Feel free to chime in…

In the world…

I really only live for two things…

A handful of real family…

To a history discovering the truths of…

People, places and things…

 

The bright red raven…

Burgandy eyed…

what’s it’s name?

In deep love with the…

In eyes of mine…

Spiritual body’s that..

Interests me in shapes of glow…

In my dreams I stay wulk…

 

I understand…

The intensity of how individual…

Human minds work…

All five points of tunneled vision…

I can see…

What they love, fear and hate…

Venting to passionately wait for…

Whom or what…

When your stuck…

Anxious or crush…

Fighting or catching a flight…

Real or fake…

More and more…

 

This joke calls me crazy…

I call crazy a joke…

Dont take note……………

This is strictly off the record…

Maybe even make believe…

 

 

Jeff Fort, Larry hoover, Walter Wheat… I’m doing this for us….

I’m tired of speaking in 3rd person…

For persons that Dont understand what I say…

I’m going to keep taking small world’s on tour…

Through my way…

Im going to keep showing this part of America…

That they chuck under that rug in a sweep…

Dipping and dodging curruption…

 

 

 

 

This morning…

I watched a preteen family member…

Almost get sentence to life in prison…

He wasn’t even on that side of town that night…

So how did he do the killing!?

They just want convictions…

 

 

 

 

They!

 

 

 

 

Being the blind justice system..

Feeding us to prisons…

Satisfaction to the owners of them…

 

 

 

 

Us…

 

 

 

Matching there wealth to a space ship…

 

 

 

 

Housing backed up…

Like a bad parallel park…

 

 

 

 

Providing nothing!

 

 

 

 

So we make ways to fin for our selves…

 

 

 

 

The illusion is so big that…

It can even fool myself…

 

 

 

 

Sometimes!

 

 

 

 

 

“If you want to understand better!”

 

“Come here!”

 

“Take off from your job!”

 

“My hotel is section 8!”

 

“I’ll show you why I…”

 

“Make this deadly face…”

 

“I’ll show you why…”

 

“Living hear isn’t safe…”

 

“Can’t own a legal gun to defend our selves, kids and mothers…”

 

“So we buy them from out of…”

 

“unmarked vans from a white man…”

 

“Who happens to work for the government…”

 

“So if we kill each other in this box…”

 

“They’re satisfied…”

 

 

“Whoever gets cought with a gun…”

 

“Will do serious time…”

 

“A circle repeated like…”

 

“Cops circling our blocks!”

 

“Patrol cars on sea sick…”

 

See this…

 

 

 

 

Is what I will die for!

One day I know I will!

They all brought us here!

To get rid of there mistakes…

 

 

 

 

If I were a house NIGGA!

That dances like a puppet for “Gepetto”…

There “pedophiles” in the government…

 

 

 

 

“WITH SEXUAL ASSULT ALLEGATIONS!”

 

 

 

 

Then I’ll be considered a patriot…

A fine man of my country…

 

 

 

 

“Bitch!”

 

 

 

I’m a run away!

Who runs away from nothing!

 

 

 

 

That police officer said…

 

 

 

“If I sees you again…”

 

“I’m going to kill you and rape mother!”

 

 

 

I haven’t seen my mother in years!

Plus!

He my be a rookie…

If he don’t know me…

If my mother was hear…

She would have said the exact same thing…

 

 

So fuck ya!

 

 

 

 

“I will not sulute!”

 

 

 

 

To a absolutely lieing deadly country…

That only cares about people…

White or black…

If we have money…

I’m hungry…

I’ll get citizen ship in Hungaria…

I ain’t fucking scared of ya!

 

 

 

 

You don’t like me then come get me!

I promise you!

My hood army will go down in history!

 

 

“Let’s get this strait from my mouth to the Internet paper…

 

 

 

 

“I’M A GANG BANGING SON OF A MENACE!”

“I’M A GANG BANGING COMMANDER!”

“THAT CARES ABOUT THEE CITIZENS OF THESE STREETS!”

“I’M A GANG BANGING FOOL!”

“THAT WILL SHOOT YOU!”

“SO FAST!”

“YOU’LL HAVE 7.62 ROUNDS ALL IN YOUR LAPS!”

“I’M A GANG MEMBER OF HIGH STATICE!”

“THEY PAINT A PICTURE LIKE MOST OF US ARE KILLERS AND BANDITS!”

“ALL FOR VIEWS!”

“WHY WON’T YOU SHOW THE REAL GANGS THAT…”

“HELP AND PROTECT THE COMMUNITYS…”

 

 

 

 

“WHEN I DIE!”

“I WILL BE GANG BANGING  IN MY EULOGY!”

 

 

 

“I’M NOT ASHAMED OF WHO I AM!”

“IT’S THE OPPOSITION!”

“THE HOLIER THEN THOU WHITE COLLARD AND PROUD!”

“STILL LIEING TO WHOM EVER!”

“WILL BELIEVE THERE FAKE SMILES!”

“LIKE THIS IS THE BEST COUNTRY EVER!”

“THEY TRY TO KEEP THE PEOPLE FROM IN OUR CITY!”

“FROM GOING DOWN TOWN!”

 

 

 

“AIN’T THAT RIGHT MY MUSLIM BROTHERS AND SISTERS…”

“MY NATIVE AMERICANS SLASH MEXICANS, HONDURANS, AND GUATEMALANS!”

“HATIANS!”

“PUETO RICANS!”

“AND OTHERS!”

 

 

 

 

“BEING MISS PLACED IN THE MINDS!”

“AS TERRORIST!”

“GUTTER FLOWERS…”

 

 

 

 

“I SPEAK FOR US!”

“I SPEAK FOR YOU!”

“I SPEAK FACTS!”

“IM LIVING PROF!”

“I’M LIKE A PRIMINISTER OF MY GROUP!”

“MY PEOPLE WILL BENEFIT FROM THE OLD DAYS OF STRANGE FRUIT…”

 

 

 

 

“I’M DONE!”

 

 

 

OH YA!

 

 

 

“WITH NO TRUE JUSTICE!”

“THERE WILL NEVER BE PEACE!”

 

 

 

With out some true Justice….

There will never be peace…

There will never be peace…

I’m not ashamed of who I be….

If you dont like it….

Do what you said…

KI’ll me…….

Bitch………

 

Wonder Twins Powers Activate

In the pastence of my reality trip…

I’ve waited my whole life for you…

Lived to find…

A connection ever more powerful…

In different rooms of the world…

I fought against fate…

Mistakes were in faculties…

The double date…

With one couple…

Two different, difficult minds…

Basically the same in similarities…

Exiled to a camp…

Away…

Alone…

We just wanted home…

 

“Bonjou!”

“Kijan ou rele?”

I asked her…

 

She said…

“What did you say?”

I told her that…

I’d explain my tounge if you actually believe in heritages…

Our compatibilitys…

Then you will understand that…

I’m not trying to be your man…

I’m trying to rule the world with you…

Equity in our skin…

Steel in our bones…

 

Let’s get it!

Nothing can stop us!

In getting what fuck we deserve!

 

The Meeting of Two Minds

Look…

let me tell my side…

I didn’t want to do it period…

But she is a wordpress veteran that helped me…

In my beginning times here…

So I said fuck it…

Although we might not…

Write alike or think alike…

Shes been a mentor…

So this is our collaboration… “finally😒”

“I’m also open to do collaboration with enyone. I look forward to mixing and not matching styles… Perfect to me is not trying to be perfect… Holla at me👉 cbland44@yahoo.com

“I will respond as soon as I can thank you!😃”

Quiet Corner

I proposed a collaboration with a friend and fellow writer; the meeting of two minds. He was opposed to the idea at first but he came to realize that maybe it was worth exploring. Our styles may very well clash and I think it’s a good thing. Why? Because it gives me the opportunity to see how our minds work on the same subject. I get to have a birds-eye view from his perspective, which is gold. We agreed to write one poem and one short story. For now, we have our poems ready to share. We’ve titled it, “Gutterflower”.  Enjoy!

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Gutterflower

A flower plucked from the grave of Dr. Anne Frost.

Of a few cents it only cost.

No one knows who left it there

she was so mean, why would anyone care?

Doctor’s diagnose disease after disease

with a note, with these pills, take three of these.

No…

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Extremely Well

Kisses good night…

 

Over excited my toes…

 

Wiggles when I kissed you back…

 

Unsuspecting a anomalies role…

 

Play…

Pay…

Sleep…

Sweet…

Dreams…

 

Trust to believe…

 

Love that sets you free…

 

Love life empty currently…

 

I chosen to be…

 

Nostalgia frozen its appearance to me…

 

The systematic break down of anxiety…

 

I remembered you…

 

I remembered those good, goodnight kisses…

 

I was like a child again…

 

The difference being…

 

I acually had a child hood when…

 

Our lips wet hi five touch…

 

Wish kids, house and ring…

 

Trials tribulate…

 

Pumpkin spice ginger tea…

 

Tree tops is where the shy me be…

 

High inside a cacoon with you…

 

360 degrees hot…

 

Lit up faces…

 

Like a old school lava lamp…

 

Energy was damn near telekinetic…

 

Matching each response…

 

Tingley tounge…

 

To fresh…

 

Like roses cut from summer rain…

 

Suction love leach…

 

lovely hickeys like…

 

Marking middle school puppy love territory…

 

Kisses feel surreal…

 

Soaring over the heel of my feet…

 

To the core of my heart…

 

Head over heels…

 

Inlove with an apology…

 

Don’t….

 

It’s ok…

 

I just never been kissed before…

 

Collapsed into comatose…

 

Slept with beauty…

 

Truly…

 

Good night kisses…

 

 

Okinawa Okinawa

Flash typhoon warning…

On this on going war report…

They asked us to cease fire…

“I ain’t dieing!”

 

We going to fight from up top to the floors.

Bottom…

If we go to prison or jail…

We going to fight even more…

Problems…

 

Odd ball like a Starlet Glanza car in the U.S…

Protesting sympathizers for us…

Off colors don’t even no what for…

I know crazy…

Can hit the door…

 

Situations can go bad…

Like a intricate Tec jammed…

Nine times in the first bracket…

You died to come back…

 

Well established bear cat tanks armored…

Riding through your front door…

Over the living room set…

Karma…

 

Those who they televise as neighborhood rebels…

Open fired back with higher caliber weapons…

The talent show began where it ended…

 

The biggest gang in the Un-united states are the…

Boys in blue…

An I ain’t talking about no Crips Cuz…

I’ll leave it for you…

Turning faces to dust…

 

This is mine…

That is yours…

There is power in numbers…

Stop the revenge on each other…

The man of color…

Isn’t yours…

Were made of rubber…

For hundreds of years…

We’ve endure…

Electric elected currents…

 

Your house guests are…

Friends…

Family…

My house guests are…

Original Gangstaz…

With 3 violent felonies…

Or more…

We are not our war…

No Role Model

“Listen…”

 

 

In my eyes were ghetto stars….

Broads, cars and jumper cables…

Prevention to rob…

 

Cold stoves, burglar bars in front of windows…

Mama never showed tears…

She been poe…

 

Drug money in hands…

Handed over for grocery bags…

Getting older filling black trash bags…

With money mondays hats with the tags…

 

Set claiming…

Gangs and gangstaz banging…

Followed all the g- codes…

Meeting and greating with…

The folks and peoples…

 

Leather coated…

Hit men that dressed in homeless cloaks…

Early morning 200 pills sold…

Deal closed…

 

-10 below…

In and out of different cars…

Musical chairs…

Vision impaired…

By the gun butt of a crooked officer…

Breaking up illegal afairs…

 

Blocked streets with broken glass…

Sofas, tires and riot masks…

Burned down half the whole city…

Really…

 

Read the newspaper clippings…

While I was clipping my toe nails in jail…

Some way…

Some how I made bail…

 

Took loses…

Then I made loses…

Played cards with…

War orphans…

Dead bosses…

Marked men…

With ready coffins…

 

Payback ended…

In a bullet conference…

Darkened room…

Escaped the light in it…

 

Like tripping on out dated shrooms…

Collecting plates like a church…

Bread a soldier sence birth…

Hints worst…

 

 

 

 

Taipan

Yogurt…

Yo plain…

Dangerous…

visitor is venomous…

Bite me…

Excite me…

Change my mind…

Loudly riled me up…

Covered mouth over…

Quiet time…

Squeezing…

Squeaking…

Off the deep end…

Deep in…

I checked in…

Muscles tightening…

Contraction…

Lyrics on wet tile…

 

Verse two…

Season won…

Crossing bodys…

Features of fun…

Respiratory…

Shakes the warriors…

Dedication…

Brass climax uncontrolled…

Now I’m soooo…

 

 

Temptress! Rapunzel! Rapunzel! Let down that gown! I’m in town now!

Powwow stolen forced herself aginst the old me. She felt warn when I was cold beef…. A cold chief!

Mistletoe reef inside one kiss. Swept off the ground by the force of my static. You wanted it for so long… Now I’m going to let you have it…

You know what I mean…