Level Three

Sleeping choices…

Abrasive to my focus…

Wake up!

I percentage out my pros and cons…

Traumatized….

By all happy things crossing T’s…

Missing doted I’s project living out…

Science….

 

I’m a living art project…

A minister of heroin incursions…

Speculator of broken needles all over…

Serving…

The nothingness minds that struggle…

To escape the planet…

 

Hands fat from hitting the wrong viens…

Teaching the youth to stop shooting…

Up…

Shit…

Be a voice of your out fit…

Knowing we will never fit the outfit…

Of the norm…

 

Sore Feet

I herd that…

Presentation is everything…

My presentation is everything…

My presentation was you…

 

Bringing facts to my…

Beyond what I need…

I thumb brushed…

The tears from your sunflower…

 

You almost grew tired of waiting…

Waiting for me…

Through prison doors…

The first face I saw…

 

Wasn’t yours…

I wasn’t unhappy…

I got home you where gone…

The neibors said you packed up…

 

Left last week…

I understand you have needs…

It would be selfish for me…

To try to get intouch with you…

 

Oh I tried to be strong…

My brothers gave me money…

Welcomed me home…

I was smirking…

 

Trying to form a smile…

Hurting so bad burn victim…

I bought a fifth of brown liquor…

Told my brothers I’m leaving…

 

I just walked from west…

To east…

Like ta hell with a open container charge…

I just came from behind bars…

 

I’m not proud of my scares…

I’m not proud I was lost…

You hurt me badly…

I pathetically wanted to die off…

 

Walking in the street…

Infront of moving cars…

I picked a ragity vaccent apartment…

Sat outback…

 

So drunken…

So cold…

Inserted a fully mag of tears…

Unloaded them down my face…

 

Crying in the rain…

Like a starving child…

Wishing food was there…

I sat in tears…

 

Thats how paper tears…………..

“Go Go Power Ranger”

Gone…

but never unconscious…

 

Right…

When you think what I say is wrong…

 

It’s cool…

I’ll just shut up…

 

A wise mind!

In these times…

Not excepted…

not allowed….

Pills shoved through my teeth!

I chased with idiots talking to me…

Don’t forget…

What you already did…

 

“Hold on…”

“Let me silence the muzzle…”

 

You don’t even get what I’m saying!

I don’t even understand my own lips…

Some say it’s a gift…

I say it’s my downfall…

A minds square foot…

Is measured by…

All my nevermind!

 

They talk to me…

My flame broiled mind!

Is in no hell!

I’m not in competition with…

The demons in cages!

Living in my consciousness…

 

“There there…”

 

 

They tell me till eventually flip out…

 

“I see dead people…”

 

No really…

I see dead people…

Looking me in the eyes…

Telling me to learn hebrew…

He grew to tall…

Till the rage was a mall!

Blood rushing down the escalators!

Into the dead pool…

Ruling the swim…

My sketch book of gang signs on in….

Tribes all dead…

I fear that I’m the opposite of alive…

Dead!

 

Open up the sky’s so I…

Can see the gates before I drop.

Suicide was never a choice.

I survived the hot desert!

Deserted round water I tryed to touch…

Turned into rusty mirages…

Got my shit in order…

Couldn’t dodge the bullet…

Or the book thrown at me!

By  jury’s and judge’s!

 

“Do you swear to tell the truth and nothing but the truth so help you god?”

 

Fuck no!

 

Only God can…

Your not a judge…

You can’t strike judgement through religion…

You wear a bathrobe…

If I wasn’t in handcuffs…

I’d drown you in a bathtub…

A warped mind!

War fead…

With halal…

That!

No one believes…

 

I don’t cry wolves from my disorders…

I stay in order because if I didnt…

You would not be alive…

Merry fucking Christmas!

 

 

D+

My sincerest stands on a try pod…

I have no feelings towards the blues…

If your afraid to die…

Then it should be easy for your to…

Take a life…

 

I’m a terrific sinner…

I’m terrible sinner…

Who isn’t…

Still judged like I give a fuck…

Like! I! give! a! fuck!

 

My life is forever stamped..

Sealed…

Delivered to the intellect of many as…

A bad deal…

When I’ve protected…

 

Never pawn in my sheild…

Gave my last to make others happy…

I’m only happy when I see…

Kids happy…

I wasn’t a happy kid…

 

So I live through them…

Like if I was happy like them…

My own family left me…

Tured there backs in front of me…

Wondering why I even tryed to reach…

 

(Fuck the police…)

 

I wanna be that darkness…

Under the under path of a freeway…

Or bridge…

Not hiding or crying…

Trying to forget the old days…

 

No days off oppression…

No freedom…

Fake search warrents…

For federal house raids…

 

 

 

Will I Ever Be Able To

100 percentiles of trust…

When I can…

100 percent…

I become a old fashioned passion-ist…

Pessimist are allowed…

Let I calm you down…

 

Trust at 100 percent…

Is the key that unlocks my thoughts…

To flood you with my forever open arms…

It should be a crime to love this hard…

You know how I feel about danger…

I’m the one to dress up as a caterer…

 

Silence the party just to only have…

Eyes for you…

Hypothetically…

Maybe…

Mists behavior…

Channeling my energy…

Through the lipstick from your neck kisses…

 

Trusting your loyalist feelings…

In your mind displaying someone…

I can actually trust to stand by…

My point is to pluto…

I’ll aim there for you though…

Capturing that…

 

You know…

For you though…

I’m a war machine…

Floating across rough waters…

With you…

Like a U-Boat…

 

Speak from your heart…

Through your throat…

Tell me you love me…

If I believe it…

Your love will only belong to me then…

I’ll never let you go…

 

If you somehow managed to…

Slip from my grips…

I’m falling in love after you…

Good afternoon…

 

German Chocolate

Unravel the pains you possess…

Future you and me release your loves oppression…

The wind blew away them nothings…

Gave you a someone who needs to be in your care…

Vice versa…

Lifes storys stay down…

Lifes joys uplift smiles…

Fitted with white cloud like…

Pinky promise my life to shield your from wretchedness…

I’m like a virus cure…

You need a Lion to kill a wolf…

Bits and peaces of trick or treat dishes full of candy…

To a kid…

Your name should be Lay’s…

I can’t eat you just once…

Blue berry swirly I’m surly swimming in your eyes…

Crystals and Dimonds keep my eyelids open…

Getting dementia from thighs I read…

 

“Let me study those for a while…”

 

Happy like a found kitten when you said you don’t mind…

My Ace told me to pick this Queen…

I thought he was a Joker…

He said that’s what a King needs…

I’m no King…

“My word!”

She definitely is thee Queen…

Then She King Me….

“Can You Believe…” “They Asked Me…” “Could They Do A Documentary…”

Hard living with out…

Supporting my claims…

Of never caring about…

 

 

Personal energy confide…

Addiction to what’s…

To I don’t know why’s…

 

Hints the blood vessels…

Bright red on the white…

Differentiated The reasons…

For me disliking life…

 

 

Like…

Am I the only one…

That can keep truths dirty…

So I don’t get brain washed…

In to the lies…

 

 

How can it be easy…

To take a life…

 

Police dogs chewing on your ass…

They didn’t even tell…

Him to stop…

 

 

The kid died from…

The infection…

They refuse to take him…

To the hospital…

 

No hospitality…

So the wonder why I be…

Why we be….

 

 

Tv, feeds me, to be ate…

Eaten to show people…

To be afraid…

Of us  negro’s…

 

 

House hold they never showed…

So if you havent talk to him or her…

How would you know…

Where his or her…

Negitivity…

Woe’s…

Grow stims from…

 

 

Living in a unsatisfactory…

Prism…

Complying to still be…

A victim…

I do not have support…

We…

 

 

 

“Work hard and be postive and productive!”😊

 

 

Let me take you on tour…

Speak to the locals…

Listening to the pains…

In there vocals…

Ohhh!

Wear some old shoes to…

Or the kids that have not…

Will un-kindly…

Remove them shits…

Up off of you…

Your new car was parked…

For 2 minutes…

Now I gotta walk to the…

Buss stop with you…

Obers and cabs don’t even…

Come through this ave…

 

 

Mother made him…

Mother fuck him…

I said fuck it…

So I rob his ass…

Nothing personal…

Just the shit we go through…..

 

 

“No one was really harmed or robbed in the taping of this and all guns and drugs you see are props….” Thank you!

 

 

 

 

Sony And Cher

The value of…

Priceless…

 

Thug girl with…

A sex drive…

On Nitrous…

“Don’t crash baby……..”

 

Speachless to…

Dumb founded…

 

She called me…

A real gangsta…

 

One of the…

Words I hate…

The most…

Now everybody thinks they are!

“Ain’t never put in no work…”

 

One sock on…

One sock off…

 

Flavor of…

Hard candy…

Made the lolly

Pop…….

“Please slow down at the stop…”

 

Malt liquor…

Weed ashes…

Two classmates…

 

Duck tape…

Hand cuffs…

No escape…

 

This is what she wanted?

“Are we kidnapping somebody?”

What The fuck!

 

Nope…

Just a nasty girl…

“In her on nasty world…”

 

To think years later…

She’d be a…

Successful lawyer…

With two boys…

An a daughter…

Back in the days though….

“Me and her was thug loving outta order…”

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

When Cornered… This Is What You Will See….

Solve…

Never could…

It will never be…

I may not be…

A people person…

 

You can critique my delivery…

I’ve for warned…

So just expect the unexpected…

They just don’t here you…

They just don’t get you…

 

Stop being selfish…

Let people be there selves…

Instead of forcing your…

Ways for them to be…

Be There…

Listen…

 

Open your mind…

Open your heart…

A mental illness may not be seen…

Like that stuff on shows or movies…

Don’t tell us that…

It’s all in our minds…

Wonder why your lover or family member…

Or friend committed suicide…

 

It’s a disorder…

Google it and read…

Get a glimpse of our hell…

Starting with anxiety…

Its breaths…

Alive…

Listen…

Pay attention…

Instead of suggestions…

Instead of mentions…

 

(What most people say)

“You’ll be ok…”

“keep the faith…”

“Try yoga…”

“Why are you acting this way…”

“I really care about you…”

 

If you did…

When I warned you…

You should have studied…

To get a understanding…

Life isn’t a joke…

Neither is my sanity…

 

It has nothing to do with faith…

It has nothing to do with hate…

It’s a bodies…

Person, place and thing…

Like I said before…

It’s not what you see…

Its what you no…

Everbodys not the same…

So what may work for him…

May not work for her…

 

“Just be a listener…

“Just be there to listen to..

“Just bare with it or go…

“Or shut the fuck up and move along!

 

“Sorry…

“I’m so sorry…

“I didn’t mean to say it all harsh…

“I ment to say…

“Shut the hell up and move on…

“Less stress to trigger us…

“ya

 

 

(THIS GOES OUT TO ALL MY PEOPLE WHO ARE ILL!”

( MISUNDERSTOOD AND TRYING TO FIND BALANCE IN YOUR SELF AND THIS WORLDL!”

(STAY STRONG! AND TAKE YA DAMN MEDICINE… OR TEA OR WHATEVER YOU DO TO RELAX!”

(TO MY PEOPLE! I LOVE YOU ALL💪❤❤❤❤❤❤!”

 

 

Losing Weight

“You know…”

“A while back…”

“I use to say that…”

“I will never talk political…”

“Or about religion…”

“So I fucked up!”

“So I’m starting over!”

“I’m going back to writing how I started out…”

“So you will hear no more subjects about…

Racism,

politics,

Trump bitch ass,

how America was never great,

how America was stolen from the natives…

And they made it a holiday called thanksgiving….

No more things about how I feel on religion…

If I left something out…

when I remember it…

I’m not going to talk about that neither…

I will say this…

I will never be subject to lies and or being brain washed…

This is something I’m doing for me…