Thee Felony Life

It ain’t easy…..

No breezy…

Please…

Some hide there shame….

Hard to maintain…

Needing maintenence…

In the center of his brain………

 

Some feel they just don’t have a reason….

A purpose…

Just to focus…

On the necessities…

To live for….

 

When backs are turned…

By folks!

With some nerve!

In a society where…

Damn…

Police are even eying me…

Trying to be…

What a changed man

Is supposed to be…

Sometimes it feel bad when…

Knowing know one’s there…

For me…

There for he is…

 

Ostracized by no’s or nay’s…

All a Like minds…

In the body…

Abandoned hourly…

This is my bed…

I keep it clean to lay silent in it…

Father…

They acted like he…

I…

Would never matter…

Fuck it…

Nevermind…

 

I move on like I’m never there…

Judged by never cares…

Don’t noooooo!

Good women want to be around…

A grown man on…

Welfare…

Still not even supporting my…

Well….

Fare….

 

I don’t want to be here…

Why would…

It sucks wood…

Not having much to get by…

No resources…

Faces turn up…

I call…

Tuck your chains…

Clutch your purse tight

Where is some kindness…

 

Eye this…

From the eyes of…

Me…

With your own…

Compassionate being…

Like a true human mind…

Like a sence of sleeping…

If your tired…

 

Fire at me with good intentions…

Acknowledge the mans tryings…

Atleast…

How genuine…

Kind…

Respectably loyal…

 

Give me no decline…

Fine…

I don’t need your beee….

Hind…

 

“Or your fake…”

“Keep tryings!”

 

 

 

 

Some of us want to be excepted…

Cared for…

Loved…

On tour…

Without…

Deep sadness…

No show and tell…

The under lip has scares…

Fist to his side…

Balled up…

Not grasping onto…

The bad hand of cards…

Delt…

Dealing with…

PTSD…

Depression…

Chilling psychosis…

Can you see the pain…

Digging my salty tears out…

Death in the mannerism….

Glad to hear when…

You think the job is calling you back…

“Given it sometime….”

Fuck it…

They’ll call me back…

Interview after interview…

I may as well start robbing…

Work skills limited…

Less than…

Minimum wages…

Is violence on your bills…

Aint doing shit…

Aggrivated…

Adjatated…

It just makes…

It easy going to…

Just end up back in…

The cage again…

The vital list of…

A convicts outside prison…

Never ending…

 

 

 

1. can’t get good money

2. can’t get a date

3. poor social skills

4. Now short fused

5. looked down like I’m of no value.

 

 

 

 

“Makes you think…”

“Right…”

 

 

Why live outside the gate?

When the only family you have…

Is in there…

Respect…

Is in the penitentiary…

Inside is home to most…

After desperately trying to fit in…

With the green grass….

A good glass of water….

I don’t even know why…

I wrote this…

Nobody will even care…

To under notice…

Us…

Me…

Them…

Most things important to people..

Are things I can barely work…

Thinks I don’t even understand…

Holding a conviction….

Under the etc etc of my tounge…

Over top of a razor blade…

Not saying all are going through this…

Im just speaking on my experience…

Perceived…

Deleted…

 

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