I hope I can stay here… If not… Fuck it…

Knock knock!

Then the call to me after…

“They said they want to talk to you…”

For what…

“Some bullshit…”

I laughed a these fisher men…

With badges on chains…

I’ve moved away…

An changed…

Still I remain…

The bad man in discussions…

Nothing matter when you’ve…

Been down this body slammed road…

Situations common like this…

I can’t even blink my eyes without…

Being pulled over an frisk…

Stopped on the street…

“You fit the description of…”

Let me guess…

A robbery…

Suspect…

Guns to my face…

Then released without even a…

“Sorry!”

Maybe I’m just in the wrong skin…

Or maybe it’s just a coincidence…

All I know is I’m use to my rights…

Being abused…

A grown ass man on time out…

That’s there plan…

The American dream…

When I can…

I’m getting a passport…

And getting the helll…

Out of this lemonade stand…

When life handz me that lemon…

Bye bye uncle Sam….

Get Ya Isha

My issues are not an excuse

To all who think so

Fuck you

Sorry that

I can’t think like you

Mind blown by

Seeing blow by blow

Horror shows

Never a dare to see

This isn’t an equation

You can just solve

Me

This is pure glass

Spit

Slipped

Shattering before I talk

If you think I’m there

I’m else where

Mentally

In another dimension

Trying to find my way out

Of my breakfast

At dinner

When you talk

When they talk

When yall talk

It’s not my fault

I might not have been

Paying attention

Mouths and eyes

They will never understand us

How Do You Say I’m A Fuck Up?

Im…

Coo Coo for coca leaves…

Ghettos cenderellas…

Shopping sprees…

Plea bargins under 18 months…

Oxycodone…

Paper cuts…

Times in times out…

When the Feds jumped out…

We jump in…

Rounded up like pigs…

From the pigs…

To the Fed pen…

Dolomite…

Minus the pimping…

With a pistol and a can of sprite…

Smoked like a black in mild…

Mildly blacked, from pistol burns..

When it rains your bone ache…

Failing life…

Born a mistake…

Progress burned at the steak…

Lies cut deeper then surgical blades…

Swollen hatred revolved the…

Staff infections…

Infecting the life of a passionless…

Nevermind…

Stay on task with this…

If you give me light…

I’ll spark this temporary liberty…

Pages Of Deja Vu

My dreams when I lay hung from trees from painted face.

Will I ever grow traces of lifes born crisis in order to let go of my camouflaging?

Shaking in a corner with news papers on the floors.

I saw ever homicide I’ve seen…

Faces I can’t ignore…

From 5 to the age now at my door…

The race car crash past!

Cell extractions with batons, shields and mustard gas…

They used chemical warfare on us…

Now that’s what I call domestic terrorism…

Pissed off ready to hurt enybody in my vision…

They took away all my priceless valuables…

Even the pictures of my family members…

Mistaken identity on identified the right rong guy!

They planted dope on us and fucked up our records…

Being on a wanted list at 14 was my ambitious way to make bad memories…

They all payed…

I’m still in pain whenever I do finnaly sleep…

Dried up tears on my black pillow cases try to still fit in as a civilian.

I still get anxiety from hearing certain noises…

Still judged when they don’t even no him…

Ask him…

He will tell you…

Just stay for a while and I’ll give you my story…

Selfishness Will Not Be Tolerated The Boy Said…

Jumping trains!

To get to the cheese…

Hoping there are no traps set for that steroid abusing mouse. On girl! To rush brightening up dull worlds. Have you ever been so broke that you robbed hope? Stripping it for the dough. Have you ever car jacked comfort? Just for better living for you and yours. Driving off doing zero to one hundred! With no remorse for eny bad out come! Have you ever cut the head off of a snake? Just to live! If you didn’t you’ll be dead…

Only to have better safer days! Let me know how it feels to be comfortable were you live! I no that there is always food in your crib! Kids breaking in your house! Ignoring your luxuries! Gold and jewlry! In your place or apartment raping your Refrigerators for lunch meat to eat!

True stories of the new youth and the old truth of the first… They got to look for three clues like blues. Wearing All black or burgandy… hoodied up instead! Calling bluffs ingredients!

“Kick dat shit out!”

“I know you got it!”

The young boy said!

With a gun pointed to the mans ribs! I see this beeing a growing major cycle! Never ending like the search for a life missing!

 

 

Pain Killers

I died today…
Rest in peace…
So sad my life
ended like it started.
Addiction…
I couldn’t shake
it so I dissolved
in my own bag
of brown sugar.
The pain it wouldn’t
stop, the flames
were very hot and
I’ve stained the
minds of lots,
but only after death.
No pot to piss
in so I stole yours.
Bewildered…
Kicking in door
after door only
to find more
problems on
the other side.
Your irresponsible
lectures turned me
out. Making me
heartless.
This is evidence
that supports
and confirms
my statements.
I laid on her
stomach at
night rubbing
my fingers on
her cesarean
scars and she
took her
pocket knife
that was already
stained with
her past lovers
blood and
stabbed me
in the back
and twisted
the blade
until it broken
in my flesh
to create
more pain.
I didn’t die
from that.
I died because
I loved for
one second to
many and
turned my back.
That was
the first time
my tears created
acid that
dropped in my
hands and burned
away the calluses.
I am so glad to
be dead.