Salt and Mud

You left me stranded

So I drowned in
Gun fire, Jack Daniels
And 40oz”s

Drama, flying saucers
Bullets lost in
brick walls

Lodged

In house furniture
Sold out slugs

Copper tops tree top
Pirus

Cookie cutters

My Dimu called
Them bookie
Butters

Like he
Had a speech
Impediment

Thats just Blood
edicate

Raised hell
A bit

To intelligent

In a cell a bit

Letters never
Sent never
Touched

like
They were
Celabate

You
Never sent
A letter back

The child
That was once
Beaten blue

Brused for
For nothing

By you

Clutching a belt
Shaped as a “U”

Ungrateful
And unfaithful like
Samson

So

I stay absent

Like you

Browning Of The Roux


“Browning Of The Roux”

Quit bitching
Folk.

You’d probably
Throw up.

All in your
Mouth till you choke.

Can I get
A witness from.

Those who
Have been.

Subjected
To all types.

Of murder
Entrapments.

Oppression,
War, discrimination,
PTSD.

Hold up
Now!

Real PTSD
From rebel enemies.

Infidels to
See your well being.

Lifeless, loving
Less, teenager’s.

Killers with Chips
in there britches.

Masked up
Then home invaded.

Ransom shit
Stripped till humiliated.

Starving for the,
Lost betters.

From a bitter
No better life.

Always, off,
Scedual…

Fuck Your
Money!!

Though my
Tribe maybe starving…

Staying on
Dope just to gets sleep!

Drinking liquor to
Heal from the beating!!

Cocaine in my
Veins, staying awake!!!

For days!!!!

To dodge all
The heathens!!!!!

And if I bleed
Today!!!!!!

You will surely be
Murdered this evening!!!!!!!

They don’t give
A fuxk what we believe in…

BITCH IM BLAXKK!

BUT TO ALL MY
OPPRESSED ALL!

AROUND THE WORLD!
PLEASE DON’T BE SEATED!

EVEN IF DIFFERENT
CIRCUMSTANCES!

YOU ARE NOT ALONE!

THOUGH WAR MAYBE
INEVITABLE!

MOST OF THE
WORLD DONT GIVE!

A FUCK ABOUT
USSS!!

OR SHIT ABOUT
WHAT WE GO THROUGH!!

SAYING AND PRAYING
AND POSTING!

IS LIKE A FAD OR
BANDWAGON!

BUT IF YOU AINT
FIGHTING WITH US!

ALONGSIDE IN US!
ANYWAY!!

FUXK YA WORDS,
PROMISES, AID,
PROTEST!

LETS FIGHT
FOR OUR SELVES!

FOR BETTER PROGRESS!

KEEP YA SMILES
AND RACE OR RELIGION!

SPLAININGS!

CALL ME WHAT YOU
WANT!

THATS ALL YOU
GOOD AT IS HATING!!!








Oh Heaven’s Ta Betsy

Rusted mind…

With a IQ high…

Swerving over lines…

Like a drunken fool…

Morgue dipping skinny…

Ignoring them organs playing…

Sewing the music back up…

No back up dancers…

Back away from thee desaster…

Terminally fake tongue of plastic…

Serious will never be your expression…

No one takes you…

Genocide the hearts…

In your brain cells…

You killer…

You did this to yourself…

Own your responsibilities…

Driving that Chevy through…

The birds nest…

Poor birds of deference…

Cash from the crook…

You know who I’m talking about…

Give it back!

Times up!

Oh Heaven’s Ta Betsy!

☝     ☝        ☝   ☝

Ha ha ha ha ha! You Fell For The Eye!

Disguised…

Don’t look into the eyes of someone who won’t hold you.

Not phisically…

No no no!

You fell first…

That’s the end of it…

Imbalance…

Who am I to quote…

Chopsticks got shaved into blow darts…

Facing the facts that love killed you first…

The sniper…

Waiting on its time to kill it’s prey…

They watch your every move…

Till your eyes close…

forever…

 

Even when you spot the sniper…

That sniper has already baited you in…

Your dead…

 

So Many Crosses

So much on my mind…

Insomnia words never sleeping…

Leaving a sleep depravted mouth…

Shaking my head…

For all the rong I did…

All the cars I stole…

To drive so far far away…

Till I see snow…

I have no goals…

I just have friend that are cons…

Pros at it…

Revival of my bible…

Blowing dust off the cross…

Please!

I need a prayer!

Mad at the same time…

Sad I had to lay ya.

No baptism after building a bloody dynasty!

Attractive left leg limp of a true child prodigy!

Smarts so quietly!

Amongst the loud back grown of my society!

Black Narnia!

Death targets with a kill me sign on your back…

They passed out counterfeit smiles…

You turned around…

To your smooth feelings.

Like you were a boss…

Oval shaped holiday holes in you…

You didn’t share the cause………..

 

 

 

You know What Bananas Do! That’s What I Did!

Break up?

Break up what?

Break weed up in a dutch!

Then twist it…

Separated is what you said to them…

Hell naw!

I climbed up out of that pit…

Hold on hold on!

Back up to when you stabbed me and gave me those cuts…

To find out I didnt do what…

With you know who…

You didn’t even apologize fool!

How many times did I have to tell you!

I DON’T CHEAT!!

Why?!

I wouldn’t want it don’t to me!

Plus I ain’t cheap…

I’m a priceless human being…

Go on and lie…

Tell everyone I was a bad guy…

However…

They were not there when my blood pressure was stroke level high…

My blood was so hot…

That they turned my tears in to smoke.

Chain smoking cigarettes till I was wulk…

Holy smokes!

I need another Newport!

My drugs wouldn’t even get me high no more…

Poor poor mind…

You burned away my good thoughts…

For awhile…

I didn’t even like the word torch!

Scars and scares me of what love can do to break you…

Up my sleeve!

I had an escape planed!

To flea from you…

I !

Felt !

Like !

Harriet……

Tubman…..

“🎶 Wait in the water…”

“Wait in the water…”

“Wait in the water children”

Ain’t no ryme or rythom to this…

I got the hell out of that bitch…

If One Year Still Hurts…

You ain’t right…

Why did you do me like this. Made me hate the world I live in…

You ain’t right…

Triple times I felt the high of leaving you behind. If I could have snatched out my own eyes…

You ain’t right…

Flirting with every man you see in front of me. Yet if I did the same it would end up in violence unnecessary…

You ain’t right…

Walking home to the apartment with tied knots in my stomach. Hoping I don’t see a past I hid from exploding.

You ain’t right…

You said I was controlling and insecure. Your out all night dressed half naked comming home with nubers in your purse…

Ya I’m insecure…

You ain’t right…

Never bringing income from a job and some. You always got money though. Who was that who just dropped you off hear at 1am! “Stop being so needy!” “That was just my cousin yo!”

You ain’t right…

Sometimes here say can be real say. Every guy that ever new her told me she’s not right man! Stay away!

You ain’t right…

I gave you the benefit of the doubt because I loved you no matter how. You proven me rong everytime so I’m out!

Stop that begging girl cause you just ain’t right…….

24 Hour Cease Fire

How many times will you get cought doing the samething…

Once a cheater always a cheater…

This is not a damn test…

broad casting your faith like that will make everything write…

The truth can only set you loose if you stop lieing…

You told me not to come down there…

I’d use one of his severed fingers to wipe your tears away…

You told me don’t do nothing…

Eye to eye contact…

You said…

 

 

There is no justification for cheating…

If you don’t want to be in a committed pinky swear…

Then why get in a relationship…

If you want someone else on the side…

Don’t get involved with someone…

 

 

Baby girl…

Hold your head high…

Stop saying it’s your fault…

 

NEVER EVER AGAIN TALK THAT NONSENSE!

 

I think the worst part is the time and love that your put in to a dove tured into shit…

I don’t want to here no I’m sorrys…

I don’t want to hear no songs about this and that…

The only thing you should be sorry for is not wiping your mouth from the shit bullshit you said…

 

 

 

Now me personally…

Me..

I’ve never been cheated on…

Well not that I know of…

Remember if you hurt a family member of mine…

You will pretty much never guess the rest…

 

 

 

“I love ya lil cousin…”

“life and people can use you up…”

“But remember this…”

“it’s no your fault…”

“Learn from these situations…”

“There will be better days…”

(A dedication to A. T.)

All I…

Tell me!

You never replied proving me right. To reply say how you really feel! You should have been real with me! From the start of this terrible marathon! I  automatically knew how I was going to place you in my life from the beginning. A sad time we live in… When other people’s feelings don’t matter! Just the dealers!

There was a fork in the road of my existence splitting. Instead of going right I went rong. You where never as serious about us!

Well…

I was!

When I would talk to you from afar. You would draw on the foggy window. Symbols of switching up! Never to care on the glass. When you aborted both of our futures. I should have left right then and there! I love so hard that even your friends noticed it more than you did. You would through tantrums Like a child whenever you didn’t get your way.

We had bills to pay! While you where a stray from all your priorities. Till this day you wondered why I left. Why I use to lose my breath. Talking some since into a dirty minds a mess. Every night you would be out late. Like nobody was ever home. You stayed with negitivity in your mind as well as your soul. I made sure we kept a comfy bed! A roof over our heads!

What a shame….

All I Got in return was more and more pain. I just thought that you might of loved me! I really really loved you.

You didn’t….

You took avantage of a good man! Now your regretting those plans… I heard your new man got you pregnant and ran… You tryied to confront him… You got knocked on your ass… When you gave birth to his beautiful new born daughter. He wasn’t even present… I know your heart was slaughtered… left neglected! You act like I treated You the worst!  I was just trying to leave sence in your empty purse.

Later on as years past. Passing me a message… It said that…

“I’m sorry!”

“I’m sorry for tuning you into a mess! You where the man for me!  I’ll fucking  admit that!”

Fuck all that….

When it’s a rap pardon my back…

That’s all you will ever see again from me! The back of me pulling away in my jeep….

You….

Relationship after relationship would sink for you. Your oldest daughter told me about you! Your just more attracted to more mess! Men that walk all over you! Left boot prints on your chest!

I ain’t going to lie…

When I seen your oldest daughter… I tryied so hard not to cry. She told me how her mom misses me, my kissis and how I cared for the children… I smiled at here. Telling her I’m proud of her. Stay in school! Stay away from boys!

Sweety!

Don’t be know fool! I reached in to the glove compartment. Pulled out a brown bag. I reached in that bag. Pulled out cash… Then counted it up took my share… I then said…

Here…

I put 1000 dollers in her hand. She smile saying…

“Thank you so much sir! I don’t care what enybody says! If they ask me! You were like the only dad I every had!”

We hugged….

She left…

I drove off and cried hard from all the pain that was caused.

Cause and effect….

 

Faith In Bipolar Mistakes

The demons that walked backwards…

Facing forward…

To see into my thoughts…

Causing static flashbacks…

Trying to invite my savage past for a reunion…

I won’t go…

I can’t go…

Leave me and my mind alone!

I rebuke you monsters!

The agony that you didnt get off your shoes…

Tracking in the lowest hideous creations…

I don’t run from them…

I stand and fight!

No surrender and I Damn sure wasn’t retreating!

Damn Demons!

I will never ever let you get my mind to take over!

However…

They were clever…

They tryed so hard to pry in to!

Enticing me with the voices!

Promises of a make-believe unity/loyalty!

I was stronger than…

I thought though…

I manifested a holy water rain shower to help…

Pours Absorbed the holy liquid from the sky…

The sky were I stood under…

A giant crucifix dropped on to the lips of lies!

Crushing the demons that were present!

All thanks to Faith in The almighty…

I couldn’t have done it with out you…