From Behind The Gates Into Great Things. Lord Knows I Came A Long Way.

“I was like damn!”

“I got a phone call from one of my brothers in the penitentiary up north.”

“We where talking and out of no where he said….”

 

A yo!

How the fuck are you still alive?

 

“I laughed a little bit. Got ticket off at the same time. I paused for a minute and before I could respond…” The guy behind him next up for the phone said…

 

THAT MF IS A GLADIATOR YO!

That’s why!

 

 

 

From the seed planted…

Into the womb…

A unique seed grew…

A quiet sunflower…

Doomed to…

What he never asked for…

Never knew he’d  take those late beatings…

Hiding till seeked…

From the beast…

Early teenage years he found his feet…

He told his self…

“This is the last!”

“The last time that enyone!”

“Puts there hands on me again!”

 

School fights…

Territorial fights…

Lots of drug money…

Gave me my first conviction…

Death, dark concentrated into a jug…

Released its way up my sleeve…

No one ever ruled over me……

 

☝”I don’t like this I typed.”👆

“So I won’t finish it……”

“Starting over…”

 

 

 

 

I’ve lived!

I’ve Died!

I’ve fought!

I’ve tryed!

 

I won’t be stopped or derailed!

I’m the young king Tut with…

Snakes heads cut up…

Eyes plucked out…

You will not take my life!

If you try…

I’ll take you with me…

Gargling wet concrete…

I spit out a statue of the child I was…

Treated lest than…

Abused physically and Beat on…

That’s why I crave so much love!

Well use to…

Now I’m more expensive then…

The contract on a contract killer…

Man with many names…

Dog tags snatched from hood generals…

How did you think I would grow up?

When mom said…

“You got to leave he doesn’t want you here.”

Held tears in on that cold porch…

Drop one tear then kept it moving…

Long story I refused it…

Drugs I often abused them…

Money…

I made alot…

Till I got hot like Tater tots…

Double back with fire…

Hopped out on foot shooting targets…

I became a gladiator…

The streets were my parents…

I’m now proud to say…

Those days…

Over…

 

 

 

 

 

Make Believe Minds… May Believe It’s Right… “Narcissism”

“Nothing or no one will ever stop me or hold me back from my mind!”

 

 

When I feel love…

I give love…

You can speak love….

If the…

Actions repeated break you…

That’s bleak love…

I use to seek love…

I wanted love…

I don’t need your love…

Or a statement…

I hope I make sense…

If I don’t…

 

Then stop reading please…

You need treatment please…

Pretend that…

That’s how you feed it please…

The understanding of another…

Not understood…

Yet the mind thinks you…

Understand it is…

You don’t understand at all…

 

Getting to no one…

Is getting to no ones…

No one’s really getting to know him…

More hurting…

On top of hurting…

Trying to hold on…

My migraines can’t hold it…

 

Grip is loose…

As the intellectual bull tosses…

Self-centered…

Narcissism…

Understanding that’s not your…

Subconscious speaking…

Words are soppose to be…

Thought then formed you see…

 

I don’t believe in friendship…

Eather your family or…

An associate to me…

That can be a hard subject to see…

If you listen to ones heart…

Instead of what you think is right…

Then you will finnaly see…

Why I trust nobody…

 

“I will never be silenced from my heart to create speach…”

 

That’s not a quote…

That’s something that lives…

Hearing the same things…

You can start to believe that shit…

To be on someone’s good side…

Don’t ever force them…

To open ears…

Around the world…

Listen first if you want it………….

 

I was….

 

 

 

 

Naw I’m just fucking around…

I’m done with this……………….

Look

Beautiful…

Crude oil worth…

Nothing…

Like this on…

The outside…

Poisoning cover…

Slowly killing…

But!

She looks amazing…

I’ll pass…