“They think they know”

They dooo…
They think
they doooo…

You don’t listen
You compare.
You brush me off
Like you don’t care.
Clarify this shit…
As My diagnosis
rolls up off anothers
Tongues…

like
Water off a leaf
That’s weak…

Let me make it
Clear to those
Who won’t and
Don’t understand
That the issue
Can’t be compared
To you self
Diagnosis of me
Or yourself.

Boxed in a
A box in corner…
Small walls
I can’t peak over
Them.
With out…
I dare you to
speak… Making
Me more lonely…

“OH just do some breathing techniques and exercise. “

Ok that’s fine!
but It only
Last for a little
while!
You wonder why!
I Don’t smile!
I just
Need a stronger
Dose im on
Enough meds
To take a bull
Down!

Make me bitter
At all repetitive
remarks!

You!
Don’t!
Know!
Me!

Let me tell you
How it feels to
Be me!

Relationships/can’t
Going out in public/won’t
Being surrounded by
new people your
Friend knows/ I don’t think so…

I can socialize
to an extent.
If I say something
Out of order…..
To the huddle…
You may or may
Not hear me
keep apologizing……..

So my isolated
My inner and outer
Being…….

These issues with
in me.

Can only be exposed
If you know me….
Or sometimes not
I just feel…
Real tire…
So good night…

O ya…
I forgot…

Most times group
With a bunch of
Me’s and yous can…
Maybe even a hand
Full can understand me…

Only!

My mind
Is…

Mostly out of
Order………

I never asked for
A pity party ………

They Gone Go

You can
have the
best dick
in the universe!
You can
have the
greatest
pussy of
all times!

You can
be honest,
loyal!
You can
give all
your love,
give the
Perfect
Balance
Of affection!
You can
be rich,
wealthy,
all of thee
Above!

Helll! You
can be a
Fuxking
famous
star!

You could
have done
whatever
they wanted
Gave whatever
They desired
Or thought
They deserved!

If they
gone
cheat on
you!
They Gone
cheat on
you!
It’s nothing
you can do………….
Don’t try
to fix it
coz it wasn’t
you!

Fuxk the
excuses,
Those
narcissistic
Point of
Views………….

The blaming,
Finger wagging,
The misery
They put you
Through…

There
misbehaving!
All The
moral
indecency
Projected
On to you!

Cheating on
someone….
is…..
A selfish
thing that
causes a
Traumatic
Feeling,
trust issues,
it’s mentality
abusive…
It can get
Physical….
If they
can cheat
on you once
Then they
will damn
sure
cheat on
you again………….

“NO MATTER WHAT ANYONE SAYS!
ITS NOT YOUR FAULT AT ALL
WHY THEY DID IT!!!”

Male/female.. Whatever the fuxk you young mah fuxkaz identify as or go by.

Browning Of The Roux

“Browning Of The Roux”

Quit bitching
Folk.

You’d probably
Throw up.

All in your
Mouth till you choke.

Can I get
A witness from.

Those who
Have been.

Subjected
To all types.

Of murder
Entrapments.

Oppression,
War, discrimination,
PTSD.

Hold up
Now!

Real PTSD
From rebel enemies.

Infidels to
See your well being.

Lifeless, loving
Less, teenager’s.

Killers with Chips
in there britches.

Masked up
Then home invaded.

Ransom shit
Stripped till humiliated.

Starving for the,
Lost betters.

From a bitter
No better life.

Always, off,
Scedual…

Fuck Your
Money!!

Though my
Tribe maybe starving…

Staying on
Dope just to gets sleep!

Drinking liquor to
Heal from the beating!!

Cocaine in my
Veins, staying awake!!!

For days!!!!

To dodge all
The heathens!!!!!

And if I bleed
Today!!!!!!

You will surely be
Murdered this evening!!!!!!!

They don’t give
A fuxk what we believe in…

BITCH IM BLAXKK!

BUT TO ALL MY
OPPRESSED ALL!

AROUND THE WORLD!
PLEASE DON’T BE SEATED!

EVEN IF DIFFERENT
CIRCUMSTANCES!

YOU ARE NOT ALONE!

THOUGH WAR MAYBE
INEVITABLE!

MOST OF THE
WORLD DONT GIVE!

A FUCK ABOUT
USSS!!

OR SHIT ABOUT
WHAT WE GO THROUGH!!

SAYING AND PRAYING
AND POSTING!

IS LIKE A FAD OR
BANDWAGON!

BUT IF YOU AINT
FIGHTING WITH US!

ALONGSIDE IN US!
ANYWAY!!

FUXK YA WORDS,
PROMISES, AID,
PROTEST!

LETS FIGHT
FOR OUR SELVES!

FOR BETTER PROGRESS!

KEEP YA SMILES
AND RACE OR RELIGION!

SPLAININGS!

CALL ME WHAT YOU
WANT!

THATS ALL YOU
GOOD AT IS HATING!!!

5 Billion Flukes

Moorsh…

I morn for hisses…

That use to try to snake me…

I’m on to ya…

For my safty…

 

A whole in my chests vortex…

My cerebral cortex is dieing…

 

“For asphyxiation…”

 

I Can’t die

I see…

For torture the almighty won’t let me…

 

As a kid I…

Suffered watching everyone leave me…

 

“Times changed… ”

“I’ve grown…”

 

Dad gone…

Mom gone…

No friends…

If I let you in…

Either your family…

Slash associate…

 

Never have I ever lived legitimately…

Never who I ever knew was…

 

80s baby…

Maybe baby…

I never ever even got to be a son…

 

That’s probably why…

I don’t have one…

I’ve done it all…

 

“Shorrty lo…”

 

I never raped…

No pedophilia…

Or ever lied to people I love…

Never will I…

 

loyalist…

Is my giftedness…

For real…

 

One day if I self distruct…

I can get tranquilized…

Sent to a place for the…

Criminology of my insaine…

Never to be seen…

Again…

Where Its peaceful again…

 

Living out my days of never being…

Nobodys mistreated…

Mechanical engineers…

No matter how much people smile…

Telling you they care…

 

“Narcissism…”

 

Is the blindness…

That  most people think there real…

Loyalty is translation into fake…

 

“These blue days…”

 

Thrown around by words of escape…

Mostly…

By the millennials of today…

Who has never experienced life…

Or love…

For them selves of enyway…

They just observe what the see…

Afraid that it will be them…

 

True or not…

I have to stop…

No more letting in…

For opposits on out…

I told them In 1999….

 

“You can’t handle me now!!”

 

I was the family mistake…

When I started fighting back…

Some how…

 

I’m like a rebound for conversing…

Most people are in a relationship…

They dont even no how…

Most people have or a spouse…

They don’t even no why…

 

I’m not your problem solver…

Just because I listen to there trails…

 

Talk to him/ her…

Your priest or judge…

 

Keep me out your thoughts…

So I can live in mine…

 

With out marathons… Of the same old thing… Old things never broken… Now I will break the cycling… The back peddling…

 

I’m solid with these words…

Tattooed on my spine…

In black widow venom…

Sorry…

Not sorry…

No more will I be this victim…

I’m just truly hurt by never beens…

Who never can………………..

I’m shield myself…

From turning violent…

Long dividing My everything…

What I see as…

Never was…

 

Privicy is platinum…

Mind you business and tend to yours…..

 

 

 

It’s Not You… It’s Really Just Me…..

Red cellophane wraps around the arrow…

Struck us going through the hug in view…

Billions of lessons learned from what the heart refuse…

Infused with thought of where and who…

Where are you like “Scooby-Doo…”

80s scrunchy stylish matching my memory…

It’s whats in your chest that counts…

Never what the mind thinks…

lime bittersweet…

Like violent crimes of revenge…

Copyright infringement on how you see me…

If no one else does…

You can see me…

You’ve pass through a crowd of wealth and handsome features…

Through the nice cars, homes and a college dagree…

Passing through those guys who can give you everything….

Way more then me…….

 

For….

Me…

 

 

“My eyes are starting to well…”

 

 

 

Even when I say your to good for me…

Knowing that sometimes the heart can tell a lie….

Just not this time…

Don’t get mad…

Just be understanding of those insecurities inside…

That I have…

Of this nowhere near perfect mind…

So sorry……

I’m not your Type…

My cup will continue to…..

Runith over with tears……

“I don’t even think I spelled that correctly….”

I’m just incorrect….

You deserve better than a man with a dark past…

A bleak present…

A future I can’t find in disguise…

No true path…

Only remaining above water…

Alive………….

 

 

 

 

 

like you did with every other guy to find me….

Just pass me by…

Just miss me…………..

 

Ashamed!

9:15 PM

Faceless relics throw in a pan with olive oil, chicken blood. lighting a match to burn the picture above. The enemy! Beads dances from the other side of the family. Born cursed she said! Thats why everyone eather leaves or dies in our presents!

Believing that’s not the issue. Until it was a never ending cycle… Broken bullets to extract black powder. Rubbed it on my fist wunds to be more violent. Hallucinations of the dead in my pastence. I seen it in a car glass window punching the daylights out of it!

Mad dog no good! With a wild attitude! The same time… Remaining humble to his loved ones and good people. Kindness to a general subsides mass murder… Forgetting that y’all talked behind my back when I was gone. They said I was crazy. As well as other hurtful brand names! I can recall… I Keep it moving to leave it to the stars. Forgetting when y’all all had trouble. I was the man to call…

Old occupations never die off. They always leave the deepest scars.

How I wish I wasn’t raised in a family not like ours…………………………………..

Hollow Branches

(Hey everybody! Look at me☝ I’m a jackass!)

(Another shitty attempt to write)

 

Don’t you…

Don’t you tell me again…

Don’t you sing me the same songs you did for them…

Your words are cliche…

Now!

I might be all about a buck!

Just don’t call me dear!

Ever…

Then I think…

Washing my face in the sink…

Washing my fate down the sink…

I was never down enough nor smart enough to think about the crushes you’ve had.

The ropes they where hanged from like clothes tags…

No symptoms of sympathetic sympathizing…

Hold me again one last time before your actions let me go…

Selfish…

Selfish…

Selfish…

As I scream for your love…

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