Love’s Slave 

“Throw back from 2016”

 

 

 

Can I have some kisses….

Sweet like Dragon fruit…

Dripping juices from your summers retreat…..

I’m so high off your love….

I’ve injected your romantic…

While eyes stare into my eyes…..

I’m weak for you…

I know you want round two…

With your knees trembling…

When you hear my timberlands…

Moving closer…

To your intergalactic space that…

I would like to travel light years to…

Invite me through you solar system…

Squirting milky way…

I will make your meteors show all over me…

Please!

 

 

My only desire is to…

Treat you with the means of respect…

I’ll lay you down in the gardens of Eden…

Planting my…

First seed…

Into furtal grounds…

Watch as you bare our beautiful fruits…

While we properly nourish them ripe…

In tuned with life…

Together forever…

One day…

Lets lock lips till winter comes our way…

Let your sweet, rich valley…

Is that place for me to taste…

Dig your nails in my back…

When I pull closer!

Embrace…

In your heart I will be caged like a lion…

Swallowing the only key to my escape…

I’m trapped in your thought’s!

You’re the chains!

Bounding me to your love bug that I caught…

Hold me tight wrong or right…

No!

This ain’t for one night!

I am loves slave!

You!

Only you!

Posses the key to my release…

KEEP THEM!

IM HAPPY TO BE YOUR SLAVE LOVE!

I WAS ONLY YOUR DISASTER 

(A old ass one right here)

 

 

The life you live is ethereal to me…

I will never understand it…

My life to you is the same but deeper…

See I can’t be with you…

I don’t want you to suffer…

You know me…

You no that my life is like no other…

You were just going to college…

At the same time…

I was going to jail…

You didn’t understand it…

Yet You accepted it…

You really loved me…

I was a G…

A born gangster in the eyes of the black robes that sentenced me…

For something I didn’t even do…

We where from two different worlds…

The point is…

You were to good for me…

I didn’t want to ruin your life…

My biggest way of showing you I love you was…

To let you go…

So fly away…

Become something that Ill never be…

I want you to love someone that deserves you…

More than I do…

Born in a haphazard life…

I was…

You however…

Where bought up in a beautiful Koi pond life style…

Everything just perfect.

You deserved better…

LETS FUSE TOGETHER 

(Old One)

 

I’m so in love with you…

I’m so…

In love with you…

Love is my special place for you…

I love you so much…

Even though I know you will never love me as much…

Dangerously…

I am in to you…

I want you by my side like my solid pride…

You’re my future…

Love me…

Like I love you…

Love me like your first…

Love me like cold water quenching your thirst…

Love me like short sleeves in a summer breeze…

Love me like snow flakes on Christmas day…

I shall  love you the same…

I want you to be with me forever…

I want to make a tribe with you…

I want to take off your socks…

After a long day to rub your feet…

I want to smell your vanilla scent…

As I kiss on your soft cheek…

I want to hold you tight…

Enough that you can breath…

I want to be your breath…

You exhale so you can inhale me…

I love you so much…

I love you so…

It kills me…

When we die…

I want to be buried in your casket…

So our love will never die alone…

I love you so…

So you love I…

FOREVER!

 

 

(I didn’t really like this one here) (I was going to toss it in the trash) lol! No bullst!

TRUE PAIN

(A old one)

 

 

I’ve seen death up close and personal in the worst ways possible…

Since I was five years old…

Our relationship was a road that never ended like silent hills…

Agony…

Tragedy….

Wild beasts of all kinds…

True story!

This ain’t no confession…

This is just pure raw uncut truth…

My life is like a child coming home…

To a cold vacant apartment…

With no food or heat or running hot water…

At times…

My hopelessness became my true recognition…

No ones perfect…

Not even YOU!

Remember that before you criticize someones life…

How they write…

If you only knew…

The undernourished emotional trauma he’s been through…

This man….

WORDS HURT AND BULLETS DON’T, I’M ON A MENTAL ABUSE STRIKE

(A Oldiiiieee)

 

I just came to believe that words can kill. Negative criticism sucks!

I try to act like what people say doesn’t bother me. Truthfully it does.

I cant lie in hordes to myself! Hold my head high!

The things people can say can crush you! Before you even know you’ve been tarnished!

Laugh off insults… You know what I mean!

When some one says something mean to you in a joking way. You just sit there and laugh it off.

Knowing it just put a bullet hole in you. The mental scares that words can open.

One that no Band-Aid or gauze can cover up.

Sealing up the wound. I found out that…

Even when people so called joke with you.

It hurts…

Let’s face it!

There is always some truth in a joke. Like a drunk persons quotes.

I just laugh it off though. When really I want to get angry snapping on the inside!

I’m way weaker than I ever thought… I really don’t care what people say about me.

Who am I kidding words hurt!
You don’t understand the damage.

You don’t have to hit me or shoot me to hurt me… You don’t have to talk about my problems out loud like its a big joke…

You don’t have to smile and laugh at my discomfort… Stop and think before you say something to someone!

STOP!

THINK!

BEFORE YOU HURT SOMEONES FEELINGS!

STOP!

THINK!

If I get mad… Then all of the sudden…

I’m the bad guy! You don’t even realize you made me this way!

All because you wanted to so called make jokes. Well Im not joking!

I’m not fucking laughing! So miss me with your weak jokes!

horrible quotes!
Miss me I quote…

Miss..

Me…

SORRY MAMA BUT I’M GOING FEDERAL

(Yet another shitty oldie)

 

 

 

I’m tired of living where the sun never shines…

 

 

 

where the birds are afraid to chirp in the morning…

 

 

 

Where the bad things only get worst…

 

 

 

No hope at all….

 

 

 

I’m tired of where I live…

 

 

 

It’s dangerous and filled with drug addicts, teenage killers and rapist…

 

 

 

God save us…

 

 

 

I’m tired of coming home to the same things…

 

 

 

Six people in a two bed room apartment…

 

 

 

My hopes and dream claustrophobic…

 

 

 

Constricted boa by negativitys limited possibility’s…

 

 
I’m 12 years old…

 

 

 

I’m starving…

 

 

 

I’m tired of eating all this instant ramen…

 

 

 

Left over cheese stakes and greasy fries…

 

 

 

Fried chicken boxes from the corner store…

 

 

 

That’s all my mother could afford…

 

 

 

I’m tired of sharing my clothes with my brothers…

 

 

 

Stealing socks out of there bags…

 

 

 

Mine weren’t clean…

 

 

 

Also I was down to my last pair…

 

 
I’m tired of going to the market with my mother…

 

 

 

Getting items that later…

 

 

 

To put some items back…

 

 

 

Mom said we could afford them…

 

 

 

We couldn’t!

 

 

 

So back on the shelf they before we go go.

 

 

 

I’m tired of the other kids laughing at my clothes…

 

 

 

Them old hand me downs from a different time zone…

 

 

 

I’ll show them later on!

 

 

 

Not to laugh at me!

 

 

 

I’m tired of being broke…

 

 

 

I’m tired of being everyones joke…

 

 

 

I’m tired of being against the ropes…

 

 

 

The ropes of poverty…

 

 

 

I’m tired of living grimy…

 

 

 

I’m tired of crying silently…

 

 

 

Lights out!!

 

 

 

Bills piling!

 

 

 

Our stomachs growling…

 

 

 

Mom crying!

 

 

 

Shes getting tired of trying…

 

 

 

Violence in the worst timing…

 

 

 

Trying not to start robbing…

 

 

 

Trying to live righteous…

 

 

 

I coax with family members…

 

 

 

Get me life insurance…

 

 

 

Debating with them about life inequity…

 

 

 

With bad pictures of the past…

 

 

 

There were no perfect pictures at all…

 

 

 

So as I get older…

 

 

 

I saw that its time for me to take risks…

 

 

 

For better picks…

 

 

 

Please pray for me ma ma…

 

 

 

I’m going federal this year…

 

 

 

No more tears…

DESPAIR IS MY NAME

(A older one)

 

I got to get this off my chest…

All the rage I bare in me…

They won’t accept me for me from first site…

why?

I’m already feel guilty…

From my past…

I changed…

Only to be back at square one…

A loaded gun to my head!

Is what you gave me!

Pulled the trigger on my hopes attached to dreams!

I still feel like I’m running through the woods…

Trying to escape my former masters from enslavement…

 

 

DESPAIR IS MY NAME!

You’ve closed the window’s on my fingers…

You shut the doors in my face…

So what am I suppose to do?

How will I live?

How will I support myself?

My family…

I’m hungry at night…

Do I starve?

Waiting for a hand out…

Or do I take action?

What do I do?

 

 

DESPAIR IS MY NAME!

This treadmill of lies!

Promising me change!

Change for Better living!

Its all just a sham!

Don’t believe it!

Politicians!

Whatever!

Heath care!

Forget about it!

Social security!

Don’t make me laugh…

Spit on your shoes!

 

 

DESPAIR IS MY NAME!

 

GLASS MIST PAINS PORTRAIT

(Yet another old one for yall)

 

 

You and me were suppose to be…

Until a sea of pain bought title waves…

Who’s to blame…

For our darkest days…

Many words were said…

Before I put you to bed…

You told me not to leave…

Why would I stay…

Your words were hurricanes…

Your actions were the same…

The past bought lots of rain…

Dark storms that came…

Your shirt soaked in tears…

My hearts deepest pain…

Then the storms came…

Over and over and over…

GOD!

The pain!

Came closer and closer…

Driving me insane…

No blue sky’s for us…

No sunny days…

Ever came…

Your shirt soaked in tears again…

I’m sorry!

I can not stay…

Trying to please you will kill me…

Who’s to blame…

WHO I SAY?

These will always be…

My darkest days…

Please…

No pain for me…

I wont become your slave…

Lord knows those were my darkest days…

For that I blame…

All those rainy days…

The rainy days….

Bright thunder storms…

That came…

Love… is… pain…

Love… is…

(PAIN- 1 any unpleasant bodily sensation produced by illness, accident etc. 2 MENTAL SUFFERING!!!!)

I SURRENDER 

(Oldie right here)

 

 

I surrender…

Speed I need!

Running and running jumping fence after fence!

My shirt got caught on the gate!

Dogs barking, police sirens, helicopters circling, hovering low with search lights in the sky!

As I try to accumulate speed!

I need more air!

The wind has been knocked out of me by five black boots!

Shining chain link badges!

Standing over me in my face!

I taste blood in my mouth!

Salty, irony, gritty blood!

It’s over…

After I regain consciousness!

I opened my eyes…

I see sharp dressed suite to a tee standing in front of me…

While I lay on a hospital bed…

Inquisitions fly at me at top speed!

They realize two days later that it was mistaking identity…

Not even a apology…

Only hand cuffs taken off me…

Even a huge hospital bill…

WHY ME!?

P.T.S.D

(One of my favs oldies)

 

 

It’s only one of me…

I’ll fight all ten of y’all!

I can’t think!

Anger brewing tattooing a image of bruises on you!

I don’t even know why I am so mean sometimes…

Why I have bad dreams, flash backs of bullets coming threw my wind shield!

The life of my passenger taken…

Lord have mercy!

Rest in peace!

Your enemy has taken a permanent nap!

Don’t like my book…

CLOSE IT!

You think you tougher than me…

SHOW IT!

The only person I fear is the man in the mirror!

No big words twists turns or metaphors…

Just true facts intact…

Verbally waterboarding you to death…

A mind that seen know Christmas or thanksgivings!

With family members!

Just fist fights!

Small iron battles in the middle of the streets!

Cold prison sentences…

23 and 1… 24/7

With no nice bed sheets or throw pillows…

So what does life mean to you!?

Mine is a constant fight for survival!

Post traumatic stress disorder is my only friends and family….