I’m Not A Poet… I’m A Retired Gangster…

“I will never be a slave to correct-ness”

 

 

The pharoh the phenomenon of my ancestors blood be aware that all the gold diamonds will return back to mud nothing but speech diseases spreading beheading my hope problems get swollowed like contraband down the throat kids bids baby bibs tears I swear I’m going crazy here just because I  was born here don’t make me from here light beer turned to wine for this light year age of the Aquarius how old is she or he then bend metal with the mind open in position for the positive mind to expand like big dick up in a uturus I do what I want with no pause button for my future to end with words from faces like he was a real man so there is no one more loyal than I am reciting the Torah in a Moorish clothing baited by feds but they never cought me fuck the world for breeding criticism in everything like you should do this and you should do that No Chris do what the hell Chris wants to do my murder will be standing up from the people who say you can’t you can and when I get into my comfy burgundy velvet casket drop me in it upside down so you can kiss my dead ass cheeks you bastards

Unhealthy Minerals

Zoo season cutthroat Inhaled smoke No inhalers… Hailstorms of stampeding Crack capsules Snap backs Cocking back… Boom!!! Listens to squad cars Zoom… Paramedics Late as usual…

Fi! Fi! Fi! More shots as usual… Spin the conner Bending Again silencing witnesses… Apprentices of death Metro token Holes in the side’s Of cars doors… Don’t panic!

The plannings Of unparenting Plan’s to have No childhoods… Wild hood’s! “Billy the Kid” Would be scared! Just don’t fear If fear smells They can tell… Even police Will rob you!

Beat you up! Take you to Jail Frail If you live to Tell! There’s no telling To enyone that will Hear tears of hustler… Turn killer… Contracts signed Since we came off Slave ship’s… Beloved Devine Divided My ancestors spirits!

Nothing’s changed But the solstices… Dirty underwear to small to change… Your… Mind… That was never there Scared of starving till the… Devil’s chair… Sat down on Saturn’s… To us it’s harmless… The calm mist harnessed a Electric disaster…

God bless the safest automatic firearms…

Old Maverick

No

I spyglass

 

Rations

run low

 

It snows after

 

Basic

becomes

a privilege

 

No longer

your time

 

No matter what

tragedy comes

 

It’s ok to be

afraid

 

To

be petrified

 

If you decide

to be like

the cube

you can’t move

around

In

 

That small room

 

Trapped

 

Doing the

samethings

others

Do

 

Strip your self

 

Everyones words

shouldn’t always

be

understood

 

Expressions

of mind

shouldn’t

Even

lay

 

Next to perfect

 

Your

more then

perfect

 

When you

decline

 

Perfection

 

Burn

the

paper

That pen

 

Then tomorrow

write again

 

Love yourself

more

for

the fuck up

you think you are

I’m From L. N. G.

“BOULEVARD GO HARD!!”

 

 

Riding pass…

Yelling out of there cars…

 

 

This will be…

Thee last time I’m…

Doing this role call…

 

 

Edgewood!

Midway!

Springdale!

Norfolk!

 

 

They all know who I is…

They all no…

The bizz…

Noooo jokes…

 

 

West forest park!

Fairview!

Grantly!

Garrison!

 

 

Back then…

I was terrible…

 

I was known to…

I played pool…

Alot…

Hit me up on my cellular…

For eight balls…

In the corner of your pockets…

For those corners…

 

 

I was the best…

Every sales fell in line..

For there orders…

 So embarrassing…

 

 

Liberty heights!

Chattam and Carsdale!

Denison!

North Hilton!

 

 

Scrambled boy…

In double O’s…

Ready rock city…

Where fiends…

Panhandled…

Up at the gas stations…

 

 

Callaway!

Arydale!

Wood Haven!

Bonner Road!

 

Night walkers scheme…

Strong arm robbery…

Breaking…

Entering…

 

 

Children…

With automatics…

No safty…

 

 

“Go mode!”

Carlisle Avenue!

Bateman Avenue!

Alton Road!

Piedmont Ave!

Damn brats…

Lord knows…

I love them all…

Girls and boys…

Don’t play with toys……

At the age of 14…

They are into the streets beefs…

Older men…

If you young men…

can live past there 20’s… 

You’ll be on that…

Original gangsta…

Raffled…

 

Gwynn Falls!

Ellamont Street!

Clifton Avenue!

Wallbrook!

 

 

You can get murdered…

For a small fee…

For selling somewhere…

You should not be…

A skimpy bag of grocerys…

 

 

O…

Possibly…

Get your your pockets… emptied…

You’ve been taken…

 

Powhatan!

Hanlon Park!

Allendale!

Chelse Terrace!

 

 

Looking at somebody…

For more then…

The 5 second rule…

Bullets will certainly…

Fly in your direction…

The furnace…

 

 

Fairfax!

Oakfield!

Kathland!

Granada Ave!

 

 

Rest in peace…

To all of my soldiers…

Who won’t be…

Comming back…

 

 

 

Main Ave!

Berwyn ave!

Egerton Rd!

Dorchester!

 

 

Mega hard white…

Brown sugar or that tan…

Broken down…

Into the corners…

Alleyways…

Testers given…

The early morning applause…

 

 

Berrington Rd!

Sequoia Ave!

Belle ave!

Borman!

 

 

Kidnapped…

Tormented…

Tortured…

Ransomed off…

Over white squares of…

Numbing soft…

 

Where…

Those young bucks…

Steal bikes…

Throwing rocks…

At mormons…

 

Off porches…

 

 

West Cold Spring!

Oakford Ave!

Ridgewood!

Fern hills!

 

 

Shoot outs…

Bad deals…

Bad pills…

High heels…

That wave hello…

 

 

Broad day…

Police…

The Dt’s…

Shaking up pepper spray…

 

 

Ex pills…

Percocet prescriptions…

Xanax bars…

Unpaid bills…

 

Penhurst Ave!

Eldorado Ave!

Belvieu!

West belvedere!

 

Don’t trust no one here…

Most girls around…

Are everybody’s girlfriend…

 

 

Bad…

Hearts…

Vicious Fights…

Plegue break…

Out…

Between boys…

Men…

When they find out…

Who she’s been sleeping…

With…

 

 

Intercourse…

With both…

No remorse…

She just smurks…

 

Face..

To whoever lost that fight…

He’s comming right back…

 

Wild wild west shit…

 

Rite back there…

 

 

Groveland!

Dolefield!

Elderon!

Wabash!

White oak!

Crestfield!

Yosemite!

Copley Rd!

 

Love does not exist…

At all…

 

Traffic stops unlawful…

Hand cuffs to tight…

Wrist bleeding…

Leaving permanent scars…

 

Rats can’t come back…

Thee..

Tattle tails get brutalized…

 

Wolcott Ave!

Westchester!

Miami Place!

Fordney Lane!

 

 

Hot…

 

 

Abusive relationships…

Left both…

Men..

Women..

Dead…

 

 

Long ride downtown…

Homicide building…

You better run…

Board a plane…

Something…

 

 

Grown men…

 

Well..

We had more heart then them…

As children…

 

 

Bullets flying like…

“Jiu jitsu” kicks…

 

 

Little girls..

So sassy…

With there little hands…

On there hips…

 

 

Young boys…

8 years old…

Carrying condoms…

 

 

On the corners…

Loose cigarettes…

Marijuana out on the strip…

 

“A yo”

“Holla at shorrty!”

“He got that diesel out yalll!”

 

“Big dimes!”

“Big dimes!”

 

Ain’t no picnicking…

Ain’t no romancing…

No slow dancing…

 

 

First dates mean…

Motel recipt…

Credit or cash…

 

Bring your home girl to….

 

 

 

Library’s…

No books read…

The kids take advantage…

Are only there…

Of the free WiFi …

 

 

Facebook-en-off…

Perverted…

Instagram picks…

Ass…

Tits…

 

Narcotics detectives can…

Hit the block so quick…

You’d have to…

 

“Holllldddd What you got!”

Or swollow those those things…

If they catch you…

They’ll beat you bloody…

Yelling out…

Saying things like….

 

“Open your fucking mouth!”

“Raise up your fucking tungue!”

“You little bitch!”

 

 

About…

Let’s see…

50 Dirt bikes flying through the streets…

 

 

Tinted windows…

On vehicles…

Car…

Caravans…

 

Creeping slowly down the one way street…

 

 

Deviously…

 

 

Go Grab your heat…

Out of the stash…

Or lay…

On your ass…

 

 

Pistols…

Russian assult rifles…

Pokers out…

Swung from tall grass…

Vaccent houses…

 

 

223’s…

Hollow points…

Teflon chest protecting…

Now Its war…

 

 

Midnight Half gallons…

“Jack Daniels…”

Warm whiskey…

On cold mysteries…

You feel pissy…

 

 

All night party…

On the block…

Clocked in…

trap hours…

 

 “What hood you from!?”

“Throw your sets up higher!”

No shook replies……..

 

“I’M FROM L.N.G!”

 

 

 

shallots

“Layers till you get to the good part…”

 

 

Mr shoot em up…

Mr Minor cuts…

Mr I don’t give a fuck…

 

Never the less…

He’s back for a sec…

Know fights or knockles cracked…

 

I’m just trying to get…

All the years I lost back…

Black on black boxed animal’s…

 

like danimals…

This cookie never crumbles…

When milk is chasing…

 

This one multiple…

Is a numb skulls teacher…

Can I reach ya…

 

From my lifes bleachers…

Faculty looking at my…

Factual, facial features…

 

“He’s no teacher!”

“he’s never been to collage!”

“He’s not a road scholar!”

 

I’m a boat flying…

I’m in the sky climbing…

Perfect timing…

 

On the grind now…

Realizing now…

That I will kill the stitistics…

 

Move forward…

Snatching power out of knowledge…

To power the minds of…

 

people in my dirty shoes…

I’m just like you…

let’s make major moves…

 

 

 

 

 

Get Ya Isha

My issues are not an excuse

To all who think so

Fuck you

Sorry that

I can’t think like you

Mind blown by

Seeing blow by blow

Horror shows

Never a dare to see

This isn’t an equation

You can just solve

Me

This is pure glass

Spit

Slipped

Shattering before I talk

If you think I’m there

I’m else where

Mentally

In another dimension

Trying to find my way out

Of my breakfast

At dinner

When you talk

When they talk

When yall talk

It’s not my fault

I might not have been

Paying attention

Mouths and eyes

They will never understand us

80s

“First and foremost..”

“Free El Chapo!”

 

 

When I was younger. I sold my soul for a can of beans. I was given something different.

Edible…

Yet, filling…

Is winning equal to a good feelings… I’m still healing… The shark tank cracked open… Exposing my true fealings…

 

“First and foremost..”

“Free El Chapo!”

 

Brain scrambled… In this everyday battle… I want what you got… I must be patient to have it… Lost marbles! Camouflaged in smiles!

Then pow!

Right in the kisser!

 

“First and foremost…”

“Free El Chapo!”

 

I’ve created my own lane… Burning hands on hot stoves… Lit cigarettes put out on my legs… When a ten year old…

Me…

Getting older…

Loading Ivory in to weak soldiers… I let them all have it… I’m still dead from… Thee somethings so tragic…

Poof…

No prof…

I learned magic… Banned from heaven… Kain in leather…

 

“First and foremost..”

“Free El Chapo!”

 

Six in the morning… Your oil refinery is mine indeed… If you want it back… Go get some heat… Then take it back from me… Flames scorching those rats…

Pack sun screen…

If you send someone back…

 

“First and foremost..”

“Free El Chapo!”

 

Far from a saint… Far from patriotism… Blood is my brother… Don’t fuck with my sistas… You would rather catch syphilis… Then to pull up on this death penalty system… Snakes that don’t hiss…

I bite…

I don’t break…

This ain’t my country… This was a bad mistake… Creative speach… Is to listen then speak… Egg shells I will never creep… Shell casing I will leave…

 

“First and foremost..”

“Free El Chapo!”

 

American secret……….

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

The Jack Capital

It’s not about her loyalty to you…

 

I just gave her love…

Much better than yours…

She didnt leave…

You for me…

She was awakend by a man…

Cared enough…

To satisfied all her needs…

 

 

It’s not about her loyalty to you…

 

It’s more then you…

Or even me…

It’s to far for you to see…

Its not about cheat sheets…

Yes you are sophisticated…

I’m not hating…

You have more money then me…

I ain’t going to take it…

The lent jumps around in my pockets…

Yet…

She plays for my team…

I never hid my love of…

Verbs…

Curves from hers…

I alawys put that work in…

Recipient of her sweet degree…

 

 

It’s not about her loyalty to you…

 

I was born to give…

Not to make excuses…

About work or kids…

I’m all for you when…

Your here…

I never crossed a line with you…

I never wrecked a home…

Or houses…

Your home was…

In the hands of a dictator…

I’m the man who keeps you safe…

Better yet…

Safer…

 

It’s not about her loyalty to you…

 

I’m her shiny jewlry…

I’m a high priced dinner…

She loves to save me…

Then eats up later…

I should thank you…

For sending her to me…

If you wanna fight…

They’ll be reading your eulogy…

Soon…

Over your body…

Proved…

Your Tom foolery…

Silence you…

 

It’s not about her loyalty to you…

 

I sheltered her…

From loneliness of a broken cold…

Fenced her into my gated form…

She didnt have to go out for logs…

To perduce heat…

Smoke standing tall…

I got all the lumber she needs…

And more…

She can’t handle it yet…

Thats just my way of cashing bad checks…

Watching you bounce…

 

This ain’t about her loyalty to you…

She confide in me…

Plus…

She chose a…

uneducated…

Street smart general…

Street respected individual…

Inactive high ranking gang member…

Brawler…

Taller…

Ex thug…

Nobodies father…

Violent…

Quite…

Gentle till I’m fired up…

Never been ligitamet…

Giving money to my siblings…

Loved ones also when needed…

Whenever I’m needed…

I’m there…

If I care then I care…

Prepared for danger…

If my family is Threaten…

Or my lady…

I’ll strangle you…

Im still a blvd pacer…

With no artificial heart…

Like a pacemaker…

 

It’s not about her loyalty to you…

 

So I thanked you…

Although…

We arn’t together no more…

The last time I seen you…

You said…

 

“There has never been anyone…”

“As loving as you where to me…”

 

Even years later…

She told me…

This…

 

“This will always be about your loyalty…”

 

Sorry to the other guy…

When she left you…

It’s wasn’t about her loyalty to you…

I just gave her more space to breath…

When she came to me…

You were through…

 

It was never about loyalty…

It was about her choosing me…

Over you…

 

 

 

 

Terrorist

Once again

 

 

 

6am

Teeth clenched

Her pillow

Hand soft

Willow

I’m the hard

Principle

Inserted

Tensed

Relaxes musculs

Tough root

I’m not pulling out

 

 

 

 

6 am

Squirms

Short screams

Even squeaks

My name

In initials

Natures promise

Wet search warrant

I’m comming

In There

Regardless

 

 

 

 

 

6 am

From the bed

To the head

Spin cycle

Spits

Sounds like

Something

Jumping out

The water

Behind the

Tunnel

I think I’m lost

In

You lost yourself

At 6am

Aginst These Goalies

I’ll be coming round the mountain when they come!

I’ll be coming round the mountain when they come!

I’m going to let these bitches no were I’m from!

 

Stories of the low and dangerous….

As I fight to taste pain in a lonly unjust…

Will you or will you not understand I’m not…

I only live for clouds…

Putting on day of the dead sounds…

Fucked over for showing love!

Fucked over for going places and being judged!

I don’t want or need no friends…

Just like family…

They can leave your tears in ribbons…

 

Nothing can ever persuade me to care…

Damsels…

There cradled sarcastic shit on the bottom of new boots…

Turned backs on the only men who they choose…

Always choosing me to abuse…

If I abuse you!

I will be a bomb you can’t defuse…

Yet I’ll stick to my moral trues…

You Can’t pick or chose to pick up my shoes to wear…

They really want me to care…

The ones who say I should try it…

Won’t even blink a eyelid If I died to day bitch.

When the ball dropped on new years…

I cryed the first of the years new tears…

I’m rude still…

Exporting to my enemy’s

Importing new fears.

 

I watched someone…

With kids getting put out there apartment today…

Where they live…

I gave them my last so they could stay…

There…

That doesn’t make me good…

Or a pinch of a good holy man….

I pressed up on there landlord…

Threatened him with the most unholy plan.

 

Honestly..

 

I wanted to stab him in the face…

Right then and there…

The old me is gone…

It’s just the look of my facial features…

That I have that still preaches…

Silly me…

I only no how…

To withstand the values of…

Being a sacrifice or kamikaze….

 

Fuck you and ya mommy…

If I’m down…

Don’t perform the himlick…

I’ll tell you what you can kiss…

I just rather break your wrist…

The only time I really get attention is…

When I’m walking through stores in the mall…

 

“Excuse me sir but how long are you going to be brousing here”

 

 

Till you get the fuck out my face and stop following me!

I’ll stay the wrongly accused till I D.I.E.

There is no right…

Once people see me…

Well…

Haha…

You won’t fight or beat me…

Call the police like Y’all always do!

Like that will defeat me…

 

I’ll slap shit out of them to…

Real NIGGA wit a attitude…